Double standard in the family

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I hate how my parents don't obey those laws of manner or rules that they expect me to obey. It's all about respect... why should I respect people if they don't respect me? The story goes the following. I've had kind of delayed my university studies, due to mostly psychological problems (I was expected by them to be a straight A student in secondary school, when I wasn't particularly good at some subjects, and they didn't even care when I told them about it... I managed to get good grades, but I was burnt out, and I had my leisure time at the university, because I felt I needed some rest). They were worrying whether I can write my thesis this semester. I wanna say that I didn't sit at home, so in the last year, I was working really hard in proper workplaces. So my mom told me that she would pay a month's wage (that I got at a certain workplace) if I wrote my thesis on time. I'm not materialistic, and I wouldn't have asked for it. But she promised that me, not once, not twice. I wrote my thesis, and I got less than half of the money. I thought maybe they are going to give the rest in January, because we need Christmas money. But now we were talking about my teeth problem, and how much it would be to go to the dentist... she promised earlier that she would pay for this, but now she started whining about how much it is going to be, so I told her that the money that they didn't pay me could go to the dentist (it's about 3/4 of the money or more that is going to be paid). Then she didn't even understand what I was talking about o_O. When I asked her why she didn't keep her promise, she came up with the lousiest arguments ever, when it was clearly that she didn't wanna pay the whole money... like that I should have asked for the rest when they paid the first part, and because I didn't, it's fair that she doesn't pay. I didn't know it wasn't a family promise, but a business contract... What saddens me the best is that when I don't keep a promise, whatever promise it may be, and whatever reason I couldn't do it (like when I couldn't do my turn of household chores because I felt sick), I'm shouted at and I'm told that I'm worthless and evil... but when she doesn't keep her promise, it's fair and okay... I know that money from the parents for a thesis is not common. I wouldn't have asked for it in the first place. It's not the money that I'm really sad about, but the fact that my mother thinks she can deceive me, and that's right...