I feel like i am not "ME"

Me - myself
@jeztrose (1405)
Philippines
November 23, 2012 12:01am CST
Have you ever experience this? Well i am now currently living with my partner's place. I have been feeling like i cannot express myself freely with them. I don't know why though they have been nice to me all of this time. Somehow i feel not at home, i always just stay on our room and not mingle with them. Do i have to do something with this? I want to feel at home but i cannot.Did i need more adjustment or what? What should i do?
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10 responses
@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
12 Dec 12
What you feel is normal. You are in a different environment living with other people. It will take a while before you can be really feel at home. But wanting to feel at home is a good start.
@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
12 Dec 12
I also felt the same way when I moved in with my husband at their house. I would be doing my own laundry coz I was shy to hand it over to the helpers. And do you know how long it took me to call my inlaws as daddy and mommy? It was more than a year before I felt comfortable to call them that way. So if they call me, I would just reply "po".
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
12 Dec 12
I hope that i can adjust soon and feel free to what i wanted to do and be myself.It was really hard indeed to just be limited in everything you do.The problem is really with me since my in laws were very good to me and making their best to let me feel at home. ahaha
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
13 Dec 12
Waah!! it was really long indeed, well for me i didn't find it hard to call them mamang and papang because when we were just boyfriend and girlfriend, i used to call them that way because her mother wanted to, and if i will not call tehm mamang they will feel disappointed ,so i have no choice even if i am not that comfortable.aha
@KrauseHome (36448)
• United States
14 Dec 12
Wow!! There must be something in the distance that just does not feel right with you and your relationship and you living there. Are there other people living there in the house? Do you always feel crowded and hard to find time alone? Personally if you are not married, this might be time for you to explore your options and decide what is Best for you and do it. Your mate might have a hard time understanding at first, but it might be the Best in the end.
@KrauseHome (36448)
• United States
15 Dec 12
Well, if you are married does your husband know you feel this way? It might be the Best right now financially but at the same time not good for your relationship. Take time to express your thoughts and feelings more and find out if there is something more that can be done.
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
15 Dec 12
We are not actually married with my partner, and i also share this feeling with him, and he said that he can do nothing about this coz it is the environment in their house ever since. But we are trying to save money for our future to have our own house and to be free from them. it would take time i guess, so i really need to wait.
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
15 Dec 12
Yes we live together with his brother who has also a girl with him, and yes it is always crowded there, since their aunts and some neighbors usually stand by in their house.I think i am still in the mode of adjusting that is why it feel really hard for me to be comfortable in that house.
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• India
24 Nov 12
No i never had this feeling, i am always the real 'me' i think the feelings you have is some thing temporary, it will go away soon
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
25 Nov 12
Yeah i hope so, it just bothers me because i never used to be this way before. I hope i can find myself soon.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
24 Nov 12
Maybe it's because you once experienced being judged by them, so now you would like to avoid their presence as much as you can. We live with my in-laws too for over 7 years now. Our daughter is always in a far place studying, so it would always be us and my in-laws. When i have no work, like during holidays and my husband is at work, i would cook for our meals, because i love doing it. Then after that, i will do the dishes and be in our room to enjoy my solitude. In there, i can watch shows of my choice, i can surf the net and clean and arrange our room. I usually just go out to mingle when i have to cook and eat our meals. Although, i do mingle with them also to chat, but usually that's rare and during meals and doing the dishes only.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
26 Nov 12
Maybe you should try to discover what are their likes and tdislikes first. From then, act in accordance to what are their likes. When we are in the house that is not our own, we should act accordingly. That's the safest way to live with in-laws.
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
27 Nov 12
right! that is the best thing to do, since that house is not really ours. and i think that is my problem with it, i can't really do what i like because there are limitations that i must follow. I hope that we can get a new house, our own house so that i can be free with this kind of feeling.
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
25 Nov 12
Well they did not really do judge me, lets just say my self is not yet prepared to accept the thing that we are now a family and start a life with them, and without my parents. Unlike if am with my parents i can do what i want at home because they already knew me and accepts me. while here i can't really express the real me coz i don't want that somehow i cannot give them what they really expect on me.
• India
15 Dec 12
Hi friend, this kind of feeling are quite common to newly married persons, as you mentioned you are in your partners place, so you are thinking in this sort. Just think that they are your relatives and family members and here after that house is your own house, you will come out from this feeling and mingle with them. Attitude is every thing, so change it
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
15 Dec 12
yeah! it was really me who has a problem in the first place.I really find it hard to adjust, i keep on thinking about myself,not knowing that they are also trying hard to make me feel comfortable, i have too selfish all the time. and now i already realized what is wrong with me. well i must accept that i have a new life now together with them.
@Mavic123456 (21893)
• Thailand
23 Nov 12
First thing first are you sure you want to move in your partner's place? Or there is something you know that is not right that hampers you to feel at home? If you are not really sure that you have to move in his place maybe that's the reason why you don't feel at home. Something in you brain telling you something. Or maybe that is right, you just need more time to adjust.
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
24 Nov 12
I am too much confused right now. But i guess moving out from there and start our own can make me feel better,having our own house and everything can make me feel at ease (i guess).BUt unfortunately we can't start yet on our own since we don't have that much money yet therefore i will just try to adjust and be contented.
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
24 Nov 12
yeah.. it's his parents house. But they were so good to me and make me however feel we are one family but i don't think i'll adopt to it that easily..
@Mavic123456 (21893)
• Thailand
24 Nov 12
so it is not his house alone? You have other people living there too. No wonder you don't feel at home.
@chiyosan (30184)
• Philippines
23 Nov 12
There are times i have experienced this myself. i have always thought that i could never understand what it is that confuses me with my life and all. sometimes i look at myself in the mirror and would be confused at some length as to what i was doing, what am i supposed to be, what is the meaning of everything and all... it sure does confuses me.. but then i'd think oh well...
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
23 Nov 12
Yes i am very clueless.Though my husband always tells me just be myself and i don't need force myself on anything.But it just feels that whatever i do, i can't just do it. i don't really know why.
@nelerkz (467)
• Philippines
23 Nov 12
I understand that feeling since that you are just transferred there, that is a normal feeling and that is a part of adjustment. Socialization is a must, if you don't like it so it's just yourself can intervene there. Have a nice day ! :)
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
24 Nov 12
Yes i guess, i must really adjust and i am the only one who can help myself in this situation.Maybe i will try to somehow mingle with them and spend more time with them so that i will not feel out of place or something.
@WakeUpKitty (8694)
• Netherlands
23 Nov 12
It is not about what you should do but the question should be: what do you want? Have you ever lived on your own? Have had your own house/housekeeping? If so this ir probably the reason why you find it hard to feel home in their house (again). Ask yourself what is bother you for real (make a list). Ask yourself what you want(ed) or expect(ed).. if your and how to reach that. If your parents are nice tell them about your confused feelings as well. And yes I do think you should spend time with them as well. It's the only way to be kind of a part of this (new) home.
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
23 Nov 12
We never had our own house to start with coz we dont have enough money to start on our own.well i am very much confused as of now,i really dont know what i want.i just feel like i dont have rights to move freely because it is not my home.
@roshigo58 (4859)
• Pune, India
23 Nov 12
Hi, Sometimes I feel like this. I am straight forward type of person. But sometimes I behave very calmly with the person who irritates me. So I feel like that time as I am not me. It is very difficult for me to control my anger but sometimes I can surprisingly do it. In your case you have to adjust with your partners. every individual has his own opinions and so you have to understand each other.
@jeztrose (1405)
• Philippines
23 Nov 12
That is exactly my point, in that house i can't really express even my simple feelings, to be angry, to be happy and laugh out loud coz i know that it is not my house i feel like i have no rights to do that.Though my hubby told me that i can do whatever i like and treat their house as my own but it seems hard for me, i think i need more adjustments. And i hope one day i can feel free to be me.