My year went good to bad

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This discussion is pretty much me ranting, but i feel that if i do i may feel better in the end. So those of you want to read this go ahead. But i wont blame you if you don't want to. Lets see 2011 where to start? Okay I had been working at wendy's restaurant for three years at this point, and i decided that i wanted to start making better money i wanted a better life for myself and my boyfriend. I was sick of getting paid minimum wage. I knew that in the next five years i want to start having a family and a house. So I figured out that i needed to get my career, I did not want to go back to college or try university because I had seen dozen of people from my high school do that and not find jobs so I knew I was not going to waste my time and go down that road. I figured that my best bet would be to take a trad so that was what I did I took a secretary course figured that I could get a job just about anywhere when I was finished. As I took the course I realized that I was going into the right field because I was getting hundreds on my exams and doing really, well. At the end I graduated being one of the top students in my class and made some really good friends. I got my diploma at the end of 2011, I thought that 2012 would be a good year for me but boy have i been wrong it took me from that December until august of 2012 before I was even able to get a job in my field. I signed up for driving classes which I had always wanted to do, took most of my tax money to do it was doing really well until i got a new job so I was only available at nights for class so they had to reschedule everything and made me two months behind. So now I forgot almost everything that I learned because get this no one in my family will let me use there car. They only teach you how to drive automatic and everyone who I know that is wiling to let my drive their car has a standard, and guess who those people are my dad, and my boyfriend. My own brother wont let my use his car and he has a automatic. All because his girlfriend said no and she does not even have her license. My dad does not understand it because back when my brother was learning to drive my dad helped him out. My dad would do the same for me if he had an automatic. So here I am losing how to drive because no one will let me practice on there car. And then i get laid off from my job last week right before Christmas because the business has gone down. Me and my boyfriend were half way to getting a house, we wouldn't be living in a crummy apartment anymore. we even adopted a puppy because we thought we would be getting a house in six months. but no now we are stuck we a small apartment where we don't even have a storage unit and two cats and a dog. And to add on to everything else someone decides to hit my boyfriends parked car while in was in the store and drive off. He's insurance wont even cover half of it. It's been like bad like again and again and again. I am so scared its not even funny. I don't know how I'm going to get a job, there is never any jobs in my field at this time of the year. who knows when i will get employment insurance. How are we going to pay our bills. I went to to this field thinking it was a secure field. but it seems like nothing is secure anymore, how do i know that even if i do find another job that i wont get laiyed off again before we buy a house again. I'm trying to move forward in life and things just keep holding me back. I'm laying in bed with my mind racing. I can't sleep, all I want to do is cry my heart out. I feel depressed all the time cause I'm bored at home and i don't like not working, i don't feel safe. This is the first time in five years since I have not worked. I feel like leaving Wendy's was a biggest mistake of my life, at least there i was secure and was making money. Now I just feel useless and depressed and it scares me. I hate this. So what was to be a really good year for me has gone to poop. If you guys have any advice or want to leave me a comment I am open to them.