I'm finally willing to admit it...

United States
December 9, 2012 11:26am CST
I've been living with multiple sclerosis since June 25, 1998 officially, although I think it manifested itself first on June 9, 1994. Most of it has been good-the worst was in 1994 when I was suddenly partially paralyzed along the right side of my body. The fall down the stairs was more frustrating and bumpy, but the last seven months I've fallen five times. One was serious enough to cause permanent damage to my left knee-my good knee. The last fall, and a conversation here on myLot woke me up enough to realize that I've got to do something to make myself more stable. After a lot of thought and reading up on the subject, I believe that I've got a severe enough case of foot drop on my right foot to investigate getting fitting for an orthotic to help the problem. I may also look into a cane-I'll see what the staff at the store says. I guess this means no more shorts or skirts for me, at least not until 2014 (so I can get new health insurance), but that's ok. I'm more worried about finding shoes that will accommodate the brace I'll be wearing.
4 responses
@p1kef1sh (45681)
9 Dec 12
Wear skirts and shorts if you want to. You are attractive with or without a brace. NEVER let yourself think that somehow these things make you look ugly. The only ugly thing is the stupid thoughts of others.
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@carolbee (16230)
• United States
10 Dec 12
I totally agree with you p1kef1sh. What a nice, positive response.
• United States
9 Dec 12
I could care less about how I appear-it's just until I can qualify for health insurance! Once I get some, then I can go back to wearing skirts-they look better on me anyway. Just worried if I have to wear ugly shoes though...
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
9 Dec 12
Sorry to hear about this :( I knew how hard it is for yourself and for other people around you. My sister is also suffering health issues and we are always worried about her. I lived here from where she is (due to my work) and thinking about her makes me so sad. You are strong and I admire your courage with your battle
• United States
9 Dec 12
Thank you for your kind words. It's not been so hard for others around me since most everyone has distanced themselves from me, or in my boyfriend's case, don't fully understand what's happening. I was considering moving closer to my sister; has anyone in your family considered moving closer to her, or her moving closer to you?
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
10 Dec 12
I should say... I lived far from where she is. My other siblings lived just near her and our father is so nearby, but considering our dad's age (he's too old) and also need some attention- thu he looks more healthy and stronger than my sis. We have relatives around the place (it's our hometown) I am the only one who lives here in metro city- 6 hours drive from hometown.
@GardenGerty (160952)
• United States
9 Dec 12
It is very important for you to be safe. Then you will be able to strengthen the muscles that still work for you to keep you more independent. You are not allowed to fall again, do you hear?
• United States
9 Dec 12
Ok GG, I promise, I'll do my best to not fall again! Seriously though, I'm taking every precaution I can and being extra careful when out. No more walking alone when we have the dog-I told Jim I need to balance on his hand and he's beginning to agree.
@ctryhnny (3460)
• United States
9 Dec 12
I'm so sorry you have ms. I have a nephew who has had it for years but is doing very good. He doesn't use a cane or braces and he still rides his Harley much to his mothers dismay!
• United States
9 Dec 12
Glad to hear your nephew is doing so well. If he's still riding his Harley, he must be doing pretty well since they're quite heavy.