Should I have done what I did?

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I kinda feel really bad about what I have done. Well I am Married but separated. Well I had meet my husbands cousin like 5 years before I got married. Well I wanted to date his cousin when I meet him but he was married and at the time I was really you g and dating his brother. Well my husbands cousin ended up moving in with his dad because he left his second wife. Well me and him got to talking and texting I never texted him behind my husbands back though. Well I didn't really want to be with my husband any more the only reason I was with him was because of our children. Well I ended up leaving my husband and started dating his cousin. Well my boy friend was still married and his wide ended up moving in with his dad. Started dating his dad and all. Everyone in the family said that she was only doing that so that she could stay closer to her husband my boy friend and hope to work things out with him. I was not happy Bout this at all. Well she would text him stupid stuff all the time and he wouldn't text her back until one night he was at work and he finally texted her back. He told me that he still loved her and I under stand that I mean you can just stop loving someone that fast unless it was over a long time before you left like me. Well when he texted her back that one night she talked him into getting ha I together and working things out and he was hurt to hurt me like he did. Because not only did he hurt me he hurt my children. We were talking about getting married. Well so I left and I cried and I had said that when it didn't work out that I wouldn't jump right back into things well I did. He called me three weeks and three days later it was on my birthday when he called me and we ended up back together that day. His wife went back to his dad. And now he is divorced from her and I just hate even going to his dads I now it must sound wrong but why would I want to do that. I mean his ex wife told me that she would never go back to him and she lied to me I had asked him and her not to text if she needed something she was to text me. Well she didn't respect that. So for now I don't want myself or my fiancé to have anything to do with them. My children are happy and I am happy he is happy and his son is happy. So what more does he need right now. Should I feel like this? Should I stay away from them for now? Should I worry that it might happen again even though the divorce is final? I turst him and believe him so I believe that he will stay away from her at least and not hurt me ever again but the though is still there as though you now it has happened in the past. Do you think I'm safe now that he gave it a second chance Nd it was still the same stuff? He told me that he wanted to be able to say that he did try it becaus he is one that don't give up on something so easy and also he wanted closure in his heart. What do you think I kinda need some in sight on this even though we have been back together for a while and he has respected me n everything that I have said and he has no interest in going to his dads house for anything.