What should I do for the next years?

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Now I've been lost from which career should I take. Once I worked for a state-owned enterprise for three years, that's my first job and the payment is good. But I quitted three months ago, and found a job in a small sino-japanese joint venture as a technician. The salary is much low than before. My initial intention is to learn much from real companies, not like that state-owned enterprises or public instituions which do not earn money by their technologies or hardworking. Their payments are mainly from the taxes from civilians, they work a little and get much pay. What a shame!I hate the CCP. I curse them. They make the rich richer, the poor poorer. People having powers can do anything, we have no rights. OK..No much sh*ts. I think I have learned anything for the past three years which goes contrary to my wish. After my graduation, I decided to learn from work instead of taking part in the postgraduate entrance exams. I think I definately have that ablity to pass the exam, but I didnt. Now I have to make up for the lost for the bad decision to join that company. I dreamed of going abroad,tried to pass the IELTS and got 6.0 at the first time. But I finally realized that I have no such money for sustaining the life abroad, so I quit. Now I'm concertrating on learning 3D modeling software and FEA software. And I think I've mastered the Solidworks at least but the Ansys's on going. I'm learning that because I want to be a great engineer. But it's far beyond enough, at least my working experience is far beyond enough. And my Japanese has been deserted for 5 years, however I dont want to pick it up, because I believe I wont be paid well in a Japanese company. My thoughts are comfusing, I dont know what should I do. I just keep learning, but too comprehensive.I have no specialization. Thank you for reading such a long wordy article.