Looking a girl friend

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I am 23 years old but still single.I had chased a girl when I was studying at university.She is my classmate,we dating time around 3 months,She refused my love at last.I had been sad almost two months for my first love ,which is impressive in my memory. Since that failure,I was afraid to pursue a girl for a long time.To be honesty,I refused several girls,who are not the kind of girls I am interested in.During past two years,I expressed my love to two girls.They are really take my heart at the first sight ,of course I do my best for my true emotion.Unluckily,I failed again. After three unsuccessful love pursuing,I feel unconfident.More important is that falling in love with someone is the basic part of our life ,I am not do well in it. I want to find a girl who can accompany me forever, we overcome the life difficults as share happiness. In fact ,my ideal girl just to be ordinary.In terms of my request, I didn't care too much on her appearance as long as her own a kind heart.She know me,respecting my parents and friends.I will do the same thing to her. Sounds like this kind of girl are very common,I do find my target among my colleagues and classmates.Shame on me ,I dare not to take action.The failure shadow is still bothering me.I concern i am not handsome enough to date her,tall enough to match her,what if her turn down me and so on.Self esteem and nonconfidence stopping me from go a further step. My dear mylotters ,any good ideas!