Stupid Love
By gee1220
@gee1220 (10)
Philippines
December 28, 2012 8:18am CST
I really want to get out of here. Everything's going on circles. New year is coming and everybody wants a good change. Right? I feel like I'm stuck in a stupid relationship. How will I get out without leaving my place and still be with our common friends?(we don't live together)
I love the person even if i think he cannot protect me from his family.(his family doesn't liked me) As long as everything's fine between us. But there are times that he just shuts me out and doesn't wanna talk to me for a week or two. Then he'll come around when I'm starting to feel better and forget about him. I would just melt and forgive him.
It happened a lot of times since we were together, and this is happening "again" right now.(this holiday season)Can you imagine that? Now I feel worried that he might just come around again after the holiday then I will just embrace and forget what he did. Because he told me that he doesn't have an idea what's happening with him when he does that, maybe he's just depressed and thinking too much, he said. And he said he won't leave me, maybe he just needs time to think.(by the way, I think he's sad right now because this is the first Christmas season that we're not together for 4yrs. He's in a province with his family because his mom wanted to. and also a lot of bad things happened to him recently this is why I think he always feel depressed)
I know I am so dumb to let this happen to me. But hey, who doesn't do stupid things "in the name of love". All I need right now is understanding and a little help to figure out what to do. I still wanna help this guy whatever he's going through right now, but this is so frustrating and draining me. I'm not inspired anymore either. I don't like "me" anymore. I want a new me! I feel like he's pulling me down ever since we were together.
What do i need to do besides of praying?
3 responses
@mhaiXCs10s (619)
• Philippines
28 Dec 12
You need to do an initial step aside from praying. If you want to change then it should be for the better you if it can't be for the best of you. You are realizing now, aren't you? Obviously you are now in your sane mood because you are stating many things that looks like you are loving a man who doesn't deserves this kind of love... Apparently, you need more than realizing for you need more on sensing. You said that his family doesn't like you, but why is it so? You said that sometimes or maybe oftentimes he was taking you for granted... again but why is it so? How old are you? I understand that people do something stupid 'in the name of love' but 4 years is long enough not to be awaken by this stupidity... Well, I think you need to see yourself with him in the future. If he is making you down as of now then what will happen if you became his wife, surely he is making your life a living hell... Sweetie, wake up! True love makes us happy not like this...
@gee1220 (10)
• Philippines
29 Dec 12
Yes mhai you are right! "True love makes us happy". And I know the answers all along. I was just being blinded with my stupidity and reasons. I've been realizing for a long time but I've been too weak. Now I know I'm letting go of this negativity that surrounds me. Thank you so much for taking time to deal with me. Happy New Year!
@mhaiXCs10s (619)
• Philippines
29 Dec 12
Happy new year, gee1220! Hope year 2013 makes you do more good things to yourself... One day, a true love will come and surely you will find it worthy for you!
@ZoeJoy (1392)
• United States
29 Dec 12
You need to take time off from this guy and sort out what you really want in a true relationship. What is it that you are praying for?
People do not have to continue to do stupid things for the sake of love. Sounds like it is time for you to move on but to not continue to make stupid choices for the sake of love. Otherwise, you will continue to keep making the same 'stupid' decisions, even with a new boyfriend.
Sounds like you need someone who is mature, responsible, capable of standing on his own two feet, brave, romantic, kind, considerate, and giving.
What do you really want in a boyfriend and a husband? Perhaps that is what you need to pray about.
@dudongrong (7)
• China
28 Dec 12
Dear gee
I am a Chinese, I have a same encounter,I can feel your feeling now.From my perspective,A Chinese saying that Long pain as short-term pain,it means you should break up quickly rather than slowly.I sincerely hope that you can recovery as soon.my English is not very well.so I have so many words I cannot express.but I really want to help you .
