Wise Quote

It's been a long time since we talk and I really miss you here. I'm really sorry to hear about your mother. Is your father still around? My parents are both still very much alive and healthy too, I must add. And like you, it took me awhile to forgive my mother too. I've always thought that she was my step-mother from the way she treated me when I was young. I admit that I was a difficult child but that's not a reason to treat me the way she did. But I can't blame her. She was uneducated and she raised me the way her parents raised her. I have since forgiven her. I still cry for the child that I was. I grew up to be very shy and afraid of authority figures. I don't dare to speak out or to disagree with anybody who's older than me or who is an authority figure. Now, I realize even people who are older and who are authority figures are not infallible. I learn to speak out and to disagree with them when it's right to do so. It took me a long time to find the courage to do that. I blame it on my mother's way of raising me. She beat the fear into me. This has become such a long rant from me. I'm sorry for my long-windedness but this is what happened to me. I hope to see you more often around here. All the best.

Its okay about the rant. If it means you can makes things better with your mom, then it should be 'ranted' out. It is uncanny that she sounds like my mother. And I went about just like you do, afraid of authority figures and also withdrawn from the rest of the family. That was when my teacher 'appeared' in my life. My secondary school days were my best memories. My father had just passed away May 2012. That is why my sisters and I have been busy. I miss you too. You dont come here as often too.

Yeah I know. Last year I was so busy with another paid forum website, I seldom come here to MyLot. Then last November and December, I started being active again and finally I reached payout last month and will be paid this month. Imagine no payment from myLot for the whole year of 2012 until December! But it's totally my fault. I wasn't active here. Right now, my aim is to reach payout at least every two months. I hope I can achieve this objective.

Its hard though when someone or some people are mean on me. That brings out the worse of me..imagine an asian hulk!!

Yes the wisest thing to do is always to turn to family first. I admit I am not always positive also. I think that is why those people who give you the boosts are very important. To tell you the truth I do not know what they see in me. They are great, huh?

Yes I am blessed to know her. I am impressed by your mother, raised and raising 8 children. You are also blessed that you have become so self reliant. I dont think many people can say that they are how you are since young. I know I am not, having my two sisters to spoil me even at my old age!

Hello! I am here but not so active. A lot of people has come and gone in my life also and yes I agree they all do have a part in my life. Some raise a little 'blood', some cools me down a lot but there are many laughs to share.

Yes I definitely think that 12 is too low to be a cut off age. Thank God for your mom. Your memory of the moment is so alive, I hope that you will share it elsewhere too. Its so beautiful.