The Aftermath Of A Panic Attack
By MoonGypsy
@MoonGypsy (4606)
United States
January 26, 2013 4:50pm CST
last night i had one of the biggest panic attack in a long time. it was kind of disappointing, since some part of me actually thought they would never return. at least i didn't blank out and go in to one of my alter egos. missing time is the worst. no, this time it was just a really bad panic attack. i just got to thinking about all of my responsibilities. can i be able to hold everything down with this mental illness. i have been doing it, but how much longer can i go. what's the next bad thing to happen? i started feeling like life would be cut short. i know. they are just thoughts, but my system still can't help going into over load. well, today is much better. i got up chanted, prayed. still feel weak and drained. must take care of myself today.
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@echoforever (5180)
• United States
26 Jan 13
This is scary. I have had some panic attacks but yours sound pretty bad. I hope yo uhave someone to help you through them. I have had time blank out before but only once. I don't do that often thankfully.
@MoonGypsy (4606)
• United States
26 Jan 13
yes. i have good support. my baby was there for me as always. i just hate having to watch him feel powerless over it. i use to feel powerless over this illness (PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder), but now i know it doesn't have to control me. i can survive with it. some days are better than others. i appreciate the good days. i savor days like this when i am present, conscious, and feel more integrated.
@echoforever (5180)
• United States
27 Jan 13
I'm happy to hear that it is somewhat managable to live with it. I wish you didn't have to.
@allyoftherain (7208)
• United States
26 Jan 13
Do you have a therapist or a good friend you can talk to about this? I've had panic attacks, but I don't think I've had any nearly as bad as the ones you're describing. When I start to have a panic attack, I try to distract myself with another task like exercise or a game. If it's really bad, I'll take my anti-anxiety meds and since it's essentially a tranquilizer it'll usually make me so drowsy that I'll just go sleep it off. When I didn't know what to do about my panic attacks, I would just let them run their course. I would get into bad spots but I never blanked out, that sounds utterly terrifying! I hope today goes much better for you today, and that you have somebody you can turn to if it doesn't go well.
@MoonGypsy (4606)
• United States
26 Jan 13
yes, i do have doctors. they are very good. they take care of me well at the veteran's hospital. my husband also knew to give me my medication when it was time. it just had to run it's course. i was sure glad to have him there, as always.
