I miss my father so bad

One of the most difficult things to adjust to is the loss of a parent. My Mom passed away in July of 2000, and I mourned and cried for almost a full year. She and I were best friends and I lived with her the last 17 years of her life. We did everything together, and being alone without her was soooo hard. It still is!!! I finally opened my heart and my mind at night when I went to bed. Soon Mom was coming to me in my dreams and letting me know that she was okay and was there for me no matter what happened. She proved it when I had to have one of her dogs put to sleep. I took the dog to the vet and waited in the waiting room. After about 10 minutes the vet came out to tell me that the dog had gone to sleep and was gone. The poor man was white as a sheet and he told me the following: "I went into the room to check Rocky to see if there was anything we could do for him. I felt the door open behind me and a cold draft entered the room. I turned as the door closed to see who was there, and the room was empty!!! The hair on the back of my neck stood up, but I went on with my job. I turned to see Rocky's head lift up, even though he was paralyzed...it was like someone was holding him. Then his fur rippled like someone was petting him. I got the cold shivers, but continued with the exam. As you said, it was time for Rocky to be relieved of his suffering. I http://www.mylot.com/images/emotes/sad.gifprepared everything and turned to administer the medication. Rocky's fur rippled again and again like someone was comforting him. I administered the medication and waited. The fur continued to ripple until Rocky had passed. Then I watched as the head was gently lifted up like someone was removing their hand, and then it was gently laid back down on the table. I was scared spitless! Then the door behind me opened like someone was coming in, and I looked to see who it was and no one was there! I felt the cold draft as someone passed by me and the door stayed open a few seconds longer like someone was waiting for a dog to go through the door. Then the door closed again. I about wet myself at that time and I raced from the room to check to see if someone was playing a practical joke on me. No one was available to pull that kind of stunt!" I reassured the vet that it was probably my Mom because of how much she loved her rottweiler, Rocky. He simply agreed because he had NEVER gone through anything like that before. That night I went to bed and Mom appeared in my dream, walking down a dirt country road with Rocky beside her. Both were well and in great physical condition. I know that the previous story is hard to believe, but it is true. I feel that your "tatay" is beside you even now, watching over you and he has his hand on your shoulder to comfort you. He will continue to be there with you, keeping you safe in his arms. Even though our loved ones have passed away, they are still with us from their heavenly place. Your Tatay is hoping that you will again be happy and not so sorrowful about his passing. He loves you dearly and doesn't want you to be unhappy because of his leaving his earthly body. He now is no longer in any pain and is much happier where he is. Your instance is why I keep telling people to tell their loved ones that they love them on a regular basis. A person never knows when something might happen to take their loved ones away from their physical existence. With my Mom a day never went by that I didn't remember to tell her that I loved her. I also made sure that I would get her little "I love you" gifts. You don't need to give gifts, but always remember to tell your loved ones that you love them and don't allow arguments or anger to get in the way of that love. Look at what is going on and think "Is this the way I want to be remembered if I should suddenly depart this plane?" My love and sympathy and tons of hugs go out to you. I hope that you may find the joy of having your Tatay visit you in your dreams. It is a wonderful experience and the joy you will feel from that visit is immeasurable! Please take care of yourself and remember that little by little the pain will ease and you will remember your father with great fondness and respect.

I am sorry for your loss. Your story is not different from mine. My father passed away January 7, 1993. I am the youngest so I am the "daddy's girl" I missed him more than anyone in the house. When he got sick I was sick too. so we were both confined in one room. so the one who is taking care of us, will just go to one room. He is not as disciplinarian as your father maybe but he got the most powerful voice in the house. He seldom spoke but once he spoke, he may not hit us with stick but his words were more painful and hurtful that we will always remember. Not bad words .. but words with wisdom. He had this talent.

Sorry for your loss.My dad passed away at 65 years old and I miss him still now, even though he passed away 5 years ago. My dads birthday is the same day as my husbands and it is really hard when it comes to my husbands birthday , as all I can think of is my dad. I think of all the good times that I had when I was younger, as well as how proud he was to show off all his grand children to people. I miss the not being able to call him to hear his voice and him chatting away about things he had been doing and places where he wanted to go on holiday, all those silly songs that he loved and all the laughing we use to do when we saw each other.

Hiya GWPK., But you can still have his memory in your heart and that will never go away unless you want it to. So very sorry to hear of your loss too and so recent. I had a Father like that too but that is another story too long too mention as well. Takes time to pick up the pieces and get on with life again you will start to feel better soon and then a bit more and then a bit more until you feel almost yourself again. With me it was like that anyway.xxx

We may never know how much a person is important to us not until he is gone. But I am sure that he knows that you love him just the same. Just continue praying for his should and never forget him. He'll be always by your side to guide and protect you.

sorry to hear that, I still have my dad hes in the usa and Im here. But I lost my mom about a year ago now. SHe was my best friend. So I know how you feel there.

So very sorry for your loss. This is what happens to many kids you don't realize the satisfices that our parents have done for us until they are gone. Out of five of us I'm the oldest and the only one who calls my parents just about every single day to see how they are doing. I also make sure I say I love you because I don't know when their day on this earth will be over. That is why we should never leave a person in an argument because you don't know if that will be the last time we see them. Then you will have to live with this everyday. You need to ask yourself would your "tatay" want you to be crying everyday for him? God Bless

Many things in life we take for granted. When it is gone only we realised how much we treasure it. I am closer to my mum compared to my dad. Since we are Chinese olden family, sons are more favorable in the eyes of Chinese parents. So, I always try to find the quality moment that I have so that I can remembered the sweet memory together with my dad. He is 93 this year and on wheeled chair. I visited him on Sunday and he was so happy to see me, my family and my friend. I remembered him fondly for a day that he fetched me from school and allowed me to take over the steering wheel. Another time is when he asked my eldest brother to fetch me to the rubber estate to help out after I cried. I always looked up upon him because he is the technical guy that all the estates dwellers love as he in the one incharged of projecting movies on the open air 'cinema' once a month :)

gwapako, I'm so sorry about your father. It's very difficult to lose those we love so much, especially our parents. My mother passed away in 2005 and I miss her every day and cry for her. She was 87. I wish I could say something to comfort you. I can't comfort myself and I'm very sad about losing my mother. It was your father's time to go. He lived a long life and took care of his family. I'm sure he's watching over you as he always did, just from a different place now. You have my deepest sympathy and I understand how you feel.

I am sorry for your loss of your father. Yes, we usually tend to relaize how much we loved the person whom we care about when they are gone. This is why we must tell and or act to love or care about them when they are alive because when they are gone, then it's already late. But I'm sure your late father knows that you love him so much.

It is really very sad thing to every human beings! Every father likes her daughter to his extent. We cant express the feeling while they are not more for us certain moments. We can not measure their's love and affection with words. Always praying for god about our parents is the only best way to forget the sad things in future. I am also getting ready to loose my parents in the arriving days. They both crossed their age of seventys now. Daily i a giving my better service to then by all means regarding their health issues and many more other things.

You will never realized how good and important a person is until he is gone. It is inherent most of the people are nearsighted of what is happening specially in a children to a father relationship. A father as parent always planned what is good for his daughters or children in the future. The attitude of his children is carefully molded by him on the way he decide of what to do and what not to do and his decision is mostly based on his experienced and personal observations of the surroundings. He is sometimes over protective if not lenient as it seems but rarely in between. Hard to understand but you can when the time you'll be a parent to your own child.