Your neighbor is your first love... bad idea.
By giggles721
@giggles721 (275)
Philippines
February 1, 2013 12:05am CST
I've been living in this neighborhood for the past 8 years now and just a minute walk away from my ex-boyfriend's house. He's actually had a crush on me since childhood. I'm not assuming that because every time I visited my grandma's house for vacations, which is just across our home now, my playmates kept on asking how I feel about him and they bluntly told me that he likes me.
Anyway, he didn't make a move until I graduated from high school and moved into this neighborhood. He was my first boyfriend and I regret not listening to my mom that I shouldn't pick him. I guess moms really knows best. It didn't end well because he kept on cheating on me even if I've forgiven him many times. Going away for college and seeing him only during sem breaks made it easier for him to hide things from me. I was such a fool to think that he wouldn't hurt me because he knows my family and relatives here.
Well 3 years ago I started a small store in front of our house and that was the first time that I actually got to see him more often. It was difficult at first because I was still upset by the way he didn't try to make it up to me then. Or was it because I was still in love then? I became aloof and tried not to get affected whenever he was around. I just didn't like the fact that he acts and shows off his girlfriend whenever I'm in sight. He even tried to give hints that he wants to get back with me.
Thankfully now that he's married because he impregnated his girlfriend, I'm relieved he tries to avoid me. Also because I was able to pray that I'll be free from regrets and anger. Now I can look anywhere I want without hesitating when he's around.
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4 responses
@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
2 Feb 13
It must have been really difficult for you to be seeing him with other girls, huh? I know how much it hurts, too coz I would often see my first love walking with his new girl back in High School. Well, i wasn't really sure that they were a couple but I would often see them together. And what made it worse was when I stopped taking his calls, he didn't even made an attempt to come to me and ask what the problem was. I was literally crying for 3 years. He was just a year ahead of me.
@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
3 Feb 13
That's true! And would you believe that he still has a spot in my heart after so many years? Weird, right? How about you?
@giggles721 (275)
• Philippines
3 Feb 13
That was harsh. I think guys would tend to make us jealous specially when they know that they're your first love. It's like a leverage for them but it's really up to us to react differently. We try to pretend like it's okay but when we get home or when no one sees us we breakdown. First love is really unforgettable because it stings a lot longer than other relationships we'll encounter.
@giggles721 (275)
• Philippines
3 Feb 13
No more, I'm done with him. I'm not being hypocrite or anything like that, I might get sarcastic though if ever we get to talk again.
@Aja103654 (5644)
• Philippines
1 Feb 13
Take this as a good learning experience. There's no need to linger on your feelings for a guy like him. You deserve better. Just focus on your life and forget about him. He has his own life now. He's not exactly that good of a catch since he is such a cheater and a play boy. Don't let him affect you. Stay strong!
@giggles721 (275)
• Philippines
1 Feb 13
Thanks Aja! It took me a long time to realize that he wasn't gonna change for me. Well he now sees me not affected anymore and I think he's trying his best to avoid making eye contact with me.
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@Aja103654 (5644)
• Philippines
2 Feb 13
I see. I think you are doing well. Just stay strong and don't involve yourself with him again.
People don't often change for us. That is something we have to face and always remember. So it's not good to raise our hopes up. We have to face reality and stop ourselves from expecting happy endings all the time.
@CatsandDogs (13963)
• United States
1 Feb 13
Like you, my first boyfriend and I ended very badly. Thankfully he went away for a few years but he did come back and even got a job where I worked. I think he did that to get under my skin and he did there for a while but then he got some girl pregnant and left the area and married her. (Thank God!) Since then I married and moved far away and haven't seen him in over 20 years which is just fine by me!
@giggles721 (275)
• Philippines
2 Feb 13
Hi CatsandDogs! That must have been hard working in the same place. I couldn't even start to imagine because I myself had a hard time just by seeing him in our neighborhood. Good thing you're away from him now.
@jalucia (1431)
• United States
1 Feb 13
I am still in contact with my first boyfriend. Funny thing is that I now live as far away from as I ever have. I always wondered how it would be to live closer to him now that we are just friends. Listening to your story makes me think that things work out just how they are supposed to. That's why we live far away from each other.
@giggles721 (275)
• Philippines
1 Feb 13
I don't know if I felt the same if only we had a closure. Maybe you have no angst towards your first boyfriend so it might be different from mine. The last time I dumped him was through a text message and he didn't even reply to it. Even when he saw me back from school he didn't try to talk to me sensibly. Instead he tried to hook up even if he had a girlfriend at that time. Isn't he crazy? First love DOES die, it was just a long process for me.
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