It is pathetic when my parents make me a pawn of their games, i need help

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This has been every time all my life. I am frustrated with the behavior of my parents. First of all they don't even care how we are living, especially my dad. He never even bothers to ask if we need some support financially or morally, Nothing. He cares about his life and his dignity My mom does help me a lot. But then she is always under my father's harassment and tortures. If he wants somethings from me or if he wants me to behave like he want or go to some place where he wants, he will blackmail my mother, and my mother is scared of him, she in return will emotionally blackmail me to do certain things. I have been doing what ever they want just because i don't want to hurt them, or i don't want to disrespect them. But not every time. Every time my father will torture and harass my mother and in turn i am getting crushed. Till now i have been sacrificing so many of my dreams, my smiles and my happiness because of my family fights. We as kids never saw good times in our family. This time there is another thing that my father wants me to do, i told my mom that i am not coming home. I told a lie that i got a real time job now and i cannot leave it and come as it is new. Now she is shyt scared how she will face my father and tell him i would not be doing his work. Whatever it may be i am not going this time. She has helped me with some money last month. What should i do? i am so confused and so upset.