That moment that changes everything...

That happened when I found myself in an abusive relationship, before I met my partner I was confident, slim, loved life and had my own place, I could have wanted more, then I gave it away to be with my partner and I found that once I was in a relationship I wasn't confident, I wasn't successful, I wasn't fulfilling my dream, my partner took care of all of that, and I became dependent on them for everything. It was only when I managed to get out of that toxic relationship that I realized I was lacking in so much. I had to find the real me again, it's like I had to start again, a new page in my life and start building up again. Luckily I am strong and I did survive, I could have easily of given up. I guess what doesn't kill you makes you stronger in life.

Boy is this making me depressed. What I found is that had I worked harder, and also had the encouragement I could have gone better. I know I am not charismatic and not sexy but have always known that. I did wish that when I was younger, I had the money or my parents had the money to let me take singing lessons. I am taking them now. And as for changing the world, I find it is best for me to do by writing and getting the message out to warn of any danger.

I fell for a guy online back about four years ago. We talked online, on the phone, spent hours getting to know one another. It got to the point that we planned to meet. I thought I was pretty, not beautiful by any means but not a toad either. He had asked me for more pictures and I finally sent him some up dated ones. We made plans to meet half way between our homes. But he started acted funny. Not calling when he said he would, getting angry about spending so much time on the phone with me when he should be doing other things. The date for our meeting was getting closer. He started making excuses and telling me he was broke. I caught him in several lies. Finally it just ended. I don't know if meeting scared him, my updated pictures disappointed him or what. That was when I quit trying to meet anyone. I had had too many bad experiences and didn't care anymoe about having a man in my life. It isn't worth to me any more.

spicymary I think everyone has moments of self doubt and disappointment. In my opinion the thing to do is just go forward. Review all the good things about yourself for there must be some accomplishments of which you are proud. Then know you can learn and experience situations in life which are meaningful even if they are not exactly the dreams of your youth..All the best!!

There were times when I wanted to change the world, but like they say it's much easier to change that person in the mirror and this is where we should start.Changes occur when they become inevitable.Suddenly someone discovers something or finds a solution, or makes an important decision.At a right time and in the right place.People use wonderful things that have been invented by very intelligent people, they use them in everyday life, but do they care about the names of those people who made it a reality?No.Will they care about Bieber and Gaga after 100 years?No.Times change and people forget great minds,great names and they lay there together with the names of ordinary people like me for example.It's a shame, because they did something I couldn't and wouldn't, and still, they become less and less important as time passes by.

Well sometimes, there are just moments in your life that you feel down and lonely, but hey it is just normal. Good thing is do not let it linget for a day. AFTER a few seconds of feeling blue please please shift your mind to something happy and positive vibe. Do not let sadness fill you in. After all it is just in the mind. You can change your life powerfully.

Thanks for sharing I think each of us have similar feeling one time or other, we are human after all, but it is better to keep mind cool.

I do now and wonder how I ever made it through life with having a job whenever I really needed it. I did bookkeeping for awhile and I would make mistakes and try hard not to make that one again only to make a different one. I even had the IRS on my tail once because of a mistake. I think I gave up bookkeeping shortly after that.