best friends best traitor

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I said that based on my experienced. Since birth. I do have about not more than 5 in my entire life whom I consider was my best friend.But later on I found out at the end they do something against me.The problem which I really don't understand and they cannot answer me to the reason of their betrayal. I have never done something against them and they do not have any reason against me why they have done that.That is the reason remembering the things they've done awakes my angry against them.( well only remembering that situation).I only know to myself.I always give my best for them that I am there and never leave them and help them in times of their difficulties even I am not stable yet in my life.I still pursue to be a good friend to them because I am happy doing good things to them especially if I make them happy because of what I did to them the happiness that they brought me is really priceless.Sometimes I used to think isn't because they are not Godly person so that why they forgot what God have teach us to do? They forgot the value of friendship because of their Ungodly wants.Like one of this long time best friend which I taught is real good friend.Later one she wrote my ex boyfriend and wrote to him and she suggest my ex to make a special email which I will not trace her email. When I told her secret she told it to my family.She have many little betrayal things which I just kept quiet but later on . I lose my temper and put an end to our friendship that later on She instead is the one who get mad to me for no reason. Till now we don't have communication.And I stop having a friends around .Honestly, I feel like I really don't want to have any best friend anymore.It's ok just like this to have a friends like here in my lot but as in 'Best friend' I don't think so. I am tired being betrayed and I don't think that I can still find a good one and perhaps I don't have a time now unlike before since now I need to focus more on how to have a stable life , how to provide my daughter a good education and future and to help my family especially my parents. And yes lastly and the most important is to serve God.I don't think that I have 'Trauma' but perhaps discourage too as now MY mind was set that 'Best friend maybe the best traitor'.I remember Jesus and Judas as one of those example of betrayal. How about you my lotters.Do you have the same experience as what I did? Why some bestfriends do that don't they have conscience doing to the person who only do good to them?