When it comes to my kids

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I'm scared to let them go off to play with their neighbors. Why is that? I'm pretty sure I know why but it doesn't change anything. I still feel overprotective of them. It's not that I don't trust them, it's more distrust of other people; the ones who drive their cars too fast down my road. I love the fact that the street we live by is a dead end street, I wouldn't have to worry about them getting hurt but it still doesn't ease my fears of something bad happening to one of them. I want to say that that's normal to feel that way but then again, I see soo many parents who let their kids do whatever they want and I wounder how could they allow the to do just that? And then I mentally slap myself for judging them that way. I try to understand the reason they're a little careless. And then my brain would start to hurt...so I stop thinking about it. After all; their kids are a little bit older than mine and they've been living in the same place for I don't know how long. Have you ever been sorta like that? Scare to allow your future(meaning your kids) go off to play on the road when it's safe? I can't imagine losing a daughter. So that being said, I cannot give my oldest daughter to go-ahead-and-play order because if something were to go wrong, I'd never be able to forgive myself. I hate doing this. But I can't help it. I know that's how one makes friends and all that but I'm scared. And I know to some that's insane but what can I do? Have you ever heard this saying "face your fears head on"? I gonna have to suck it up and face my fears. Today, since there's no school; I'm going to give her the green light to play with her friends across the street. But before I do that, I'm going to make sure she knows the rules of street safety. Do you think that's a good thing for me to do as a mother? It's a totally different matter with my soon to be four year old. She's a huge risk taker. And she's tough! Paulina; not so tough! She climbs up things without being scared. She'll play with bugs and thinks its funny when I get on to her about anything! That annoys me to no end. So will I let her go with her sister to play? No because I know how she is. I trusted her not once but twice. And both times she almost made my heart stop beating altogether. The other day she wanted to walk without me holding into her hand ' I promise I won't run' I told her the moment she ran she's going into the cart. And she hates the cart! So she didn't run. On our way back to our car she ran. Thank God there were no cars out and about...but I know she's little and everything and they forget and I should be lienient with her but I have to be a little tough with them sometimes and I have it but its necessary. Now that she's getting older....I don't know how I'm gonna let go. Are you listening out there, anybody?? Happy mylotting!