When a love one passes away...
By sublime03
@sublime03 (2339)
Philippines
February 19, 2013 6:05am CST
My fiance just recently passed away and little by little it hits me that I will never see him again. I was brave enough to show everyone how strong I was not for myself but for my son. But when reality strikes you in an instant, you are left with a big burden that life would not be the same without that person.
Honestly we had our ups and downs but it was those things that made us who we are today. We shared so much of our 20's that we spent the whole time together enjoying our son grow up. So much has been shared that it makes me sad to realize I needed him so much now than ever.
It was so sudden that the rush to bringing the person you love to the hospital and having that big of a faith that things will be alright. Then you end up to having to say goodbye to the person you have been for more than how many years.
I do not know how I would feel right now. I want to be happy because I know he would want me to for my son. At the same time, sad because every time I realize that he won't be back shatters my reality.
At night before I sleep, I always cry. I cry because I miss the person I loved so much. I just put to mind that God has a reason for everything and that we should just put our faith in Him that He will never leave us nor forsake us.
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14 responses
@lloydbelleza (1227)
• Philippines
20 Feb 13
I am sorry for your loss. You said that it just happened recently, so it's okay to mourn and cry at night. But continue to live, for your son's sake and for you, too.
"..weeping may stay for the night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning." -Psalm 30:5
I believe that after you get through this, you will be happy and much happier again. Continue to hold on to God, cry to Him, tell Him all the pain you are feeling. We know He listens. We know He cares.
Don't rush yourself to be OK. It's OK not to be OK now.
Remember that there's "a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance" - Ecclesiastes 3:4
It's your time to weep and mourn now. This time more than ever you will feel God's love and grace. Through His loving comfort you will get through this big trial in your life. Just trust Him.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. - 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
I'll be praying for you. God Bless! 
@sublime03 (2339)
• Philippines
25 Mar 13
Thank you for the verses in between your messages. Its been awhile I have gone online and it was quite refreshing to see your messages. And yes His grace is sufficient without Him, I wouldn't know how I will be today.
I am grateful that I still have my son to go on with and hopefully everything turns out okay.
@Angelpink (4034)
• Philippines
20 Feb 13
So sorry to hear for this , i am with you in spirit ! No pain as painful as losing our beloved. As if we are covered by the whole world. No words can describe as to how painful it is and like nothing can heal it. You don't like to see people who are happy nor you like to mingle with others out . You are angry but you don't know as to whom you would be angry. This is a very traumatic experienced , crashing us into pieces but after this phase we need to move on , we need to understand and accept everything . We need to remember that God plans this all , that He has a reason for everything . That He took your husband because He plans to fill you with sometime better or best. Sometimes we can never understand God but one thing for sure , He loves us and never wants us to be lost. Cheer Up friend , hubby is at peace now and happy , am sure he wants to see you also happy and moving.
@ckayth (103)
• Philippines
20 Feb 13
my condolences to your lost. I know how it feels to lose someone you love. Grieving may take longer that you thought. Pain can be worse each day. But keep the faith. God has better plans. We may not know why at this moment, but someday we will. God has prepared a space in your life so someone better can fit in. He chose this road to make you stronger..So when the right one comes, you can take care of him better than the one you had first.
@marjivy80 (198)
• Philippines
20 Feb 13
sorry for your loss but life has to go on specially you have a son. the one who binds you and him. surely you will miss somebody you love and have beautiful memories. but as you said, God has a reason for everything so cheer up.
@paperdolls28 (222)
• Philippines
20 Feb 13
Sorry to hear about that. I am sure your fiance wants you to be happy with your son even if he's gone. He wants you to have a normal life but do not rush yourself because it's really hard to lose someone you loved so dearly. God said in the book of Matthew 5:4.. "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." God knows your situation and He is there to comfort you. Always remember that we have a faithful and loving God. Will include you in my prayers. God bless.
@sheis4u (16)
• Philippines
20 Feb 13
I am so sorry for your loss.It is really so sad saying goodbye to someone you love. But, you are right, God has a reason for everything. Maybe, right now, your fiance is guarding you and your son to make you safe always. Life has to move on, you have to move on. Be strong for your son.
@mensab (4200)
• Philippines
19 Feb 13
i sympathize with your loss. indeed, it is very difficult to live through a tough loss of a loved one. there will always be reminders and remembrances acting as shadows of the sweet past. the present is an agonizing moment, but the love and promise to live do endure until the last breath is over. you are blessed to feel love and loved.
@nicanorr (1789)
• Philippines
20 Feb 13
Let me help you carry your cross of having been left behind by a dear loved one. Indced cry on my shoulder to ease the pain of loneliness. I can only imagine what the feelings will be because because I am yet to pass that stage. God has been so very kind with us that for now despite our ages me 74, she 72, we still would like HIM to grant us extension. Sublime03- do cope with the situation for now because HE has something good in store for you.
@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
20 Feb 13
I am deeply sorry for your loss. I know that it is hard to go on with life having this heavy feeling. But think of it this way. Your son needs you more than ever. He already lost his dad, and that makes your responsibility doubled. Strive to get up in your feet and see life in a way that would make you feel light and happy about it. He may have passed away but he will never leave by your side. Your good decisions will always be with his help. You may not know or see it but I am sure that whatever you will do for your son is through his help and loving guidance.
@Janebaby (47)
• China
20 Feb 13
We have no right to choice something but accept it bravely. You should stronger and live more optimistically,because that is what he want you to do. Nothing can defeat us except ourselves.
@extremefun4fun (2908)
• India
19 Feb 13
I am really sorry for what you experience to lose your love one. May he rest in peace of heaven as he was that much good for you and has made you lot of good memories. I have no words to say I do not know what to say as I know sometimes for some feelings words also are less to find to explain.
@blackrusty (3519)
• Mexico
19 Feb 13
It always so sad when we lose some one that we love and my heart goes out to you and your son it takes alot to stay strong for your family but over time the pain and loss does go away even though you will remeber them for the rest of your life and as a note they are not gone forever you will see them again in heaven
