that one time in your life
By arizen
@arizen (152)
Philippines
February 22, 2013 5:42pm CST
I can admit to it. I still look at his facebook profile from time to time. I know in my heart that I do not want him anymore, but part of accepting that is the fact that I know I'll never have another like him anymore. The thing that we had was that 'once in a lifetime' that people have been talking about and mentioning in their songs. I will never get that kind of rollercoaster, upsy daisy feeling again. I am open to the fact that at one moment in the future, I will meet someone who I would end up with but I still believe that nothing can delete the memory of him and me on the grasses of Japanese garden, on the branch of a tree, playing chess, playing jackstones, baking and the roses. I may sound like a hopeless romantic and I was not this way, until he really came into my life. He was the one who taught me that it's ok to react in movies, it is ok to cry, laugh and say the things that you want to say. He literally was there and gave me some shades of color in my life that I never used to have. He is with someone else right now. Someone pretty, someone cool, a beauty queen and they're together for a long time now. I know that she knows how to keep him and I am happy for that. If there was any wish that I'd have for now, is that I'd be hypnotized on forgetting Kenneth. I never would want to think about him again. I feel that I can trust another when I forget all about him. Maybe I'd learn to trust again, who knows? But for now, I would just concentrate and focus on the things that I need to do.
4 responses
@Raine38 (12250)
• United States
23 Feb 13
Only you can help yourself move on. But take your time, moving on, letting go and healing yourself is not something that happen overnight. It is a process that you must take and commit yourself to do one step at a time. For now, like you said, do what you need to do, and work on stopping to stalk his Facebook. It will do you no good, it will hurt you, bring you back feelings and memories and before you know it, you are back where you started. It's like you have taken 2 steps forward and 3 back each time you try to check his account. Don't do that to yourself. If you have to deactivate your account to keep you from visiting his page, do it. Do it for yourself.
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@Paper_Doll (2373)
• Philippines
10 Mar 13
I almost cried after reading your post. I know the feeling because I have been in the same situation before. Moving on is not easy. It will take some time so don't rush yourself. You're going to pass some stages in your life until you fully accept that it is over.
It is really hard when you think, and every body think that you are the luckiest person on earth for having him. I've been there. Even at present, whenever my husband and I would have difficulties in our relationship, many of my friends would mention my ex and telling me that I made a wrong decision when I left him. I admit that at first, I have many regrets but now, I no longer feel that way. My husband may not be as successful and smart as he is, but definitely, he is worth everything.
I hope that you'll find Mr. Right the soonest and forget all the pains of the past.
@giex22 (273)
• Cebu, Philippines
3 Mar 13
Forgetting of all your memories to that man is not as simple as 1, 2, 3 but you can actually ease/ lessen it by doing some things you would like to busy with. Though it really comes for a period of time then you should fight it. It is not healthy for you to reminiscent the memories between the two of you. The guy already move on so as yourself also try to open your heart, and mind to somebody, and don't ever look for a person that just like that man 'coz your probably have a hard time to find one. Every person has its own uniqueness. Try to be more on yourself, hang out with friends for you to see the right guy for you. And pray for that person to come into your life so that it will be completed. :)
