What Do You Think Of It?

There are so many things that I wanna change. For example, I want to save the puppy which I raised at 13 from being killed in the car accident. Or I want to cancel the love for a boy at middle school. And even sometimes I want to go back to the time when I was 6. But it is impossible i know. And even if it can be realized I won't do that. Life is equal. God is equal. Everyone has only one chance for life. So many things happened to us without giving choices. No regret, then you can live happily. Tomorrow is always better than today.

maybe I will study better and harder if I had the chance, I never give my 100% when it comes to studies and I just don't care. Although I never failed and I was always in the middle (modesty aside, being easy go lucky) somehow I think maybe I am a better person now if I became competitive and if I take my studies seriously. Now I am a teacher and I believe that if the teacher is smart and so the students. although I am giving my 100% on teaching I just think it will be easier for me, if I study hard before..haha

Maybe what is here today, is what's the best plan for it.. We are seeking something good, something much better, even something that we hope we could change. But I believe, if things doesn't got like this, it could have been worse..! But when there is something I like to change in my life, maybe you're right.. Hope I could fixed something back in time, that if I have given a chance to travel back. Though, somewhat I'm quite thankful that I'm living now my life considering all the lessons I gained from my previous errors and mistakes. It means, I'm then contented of what I am now. Maybe I'm not perfect enough that so much flaw comes in life, but still I believe its for the best, and it's the best that I am been. Though hopefully I can fixed that flaws, that I don't need to go back if I can fixed it today,

Well, maybe what I would change is my way of thinking with regards to my future. Coz when I was about to go to College, it was like I was not that prepared, although I did make good grades, but I guess, having a stronger push to do the best would have made me successful in my chosen profession.

There was a time in my life where I constantly found myself wishing that things turned out differently. I spent majority of my time asking myself that infamous question: "What if...?" Somewhere along the way it dawned on me that the reason I am asking myself that is because I am not truly happy with the way things are and that I am not accepting myself as a person. I re-evaluated my life and myself and came to the conclusion that the person I am today is because of all the things that have happened to me, whether they were good or bad. Each of them shaped me into a person I am today. I could wish that I never met my ex husband but then I wouldn't have my son. So in the grand scheme of things, I don't wish to change the things that happened in the past nor do I wish to go back in time and do things differently. I think that once you are happy with your life, and accept yourself for who you are, that question of "What if...?" starts to fade away.