i dont know what to do anymore

You could perhaps look at natural beauty around you because seeing the pretty trees, the colorful flowers, green landscapes and cute little animals is lovely. I feel a day out to an interesting or fascinating place can feel uplifting and very happy. The future might well be a lot better than the current time. It is the year 2013 and so please make a plan to get your life better for happy 2014. Good luck.

It sounds to me like you may be looking for happiness from others when you can only find true happiness within yourself. If you do not like who you are, you cannot expect anyone else to. You need to figure out why you are getting these rejections and correct that issue within yourself. Then you won't be getting rejected all the time. When you find love within yourself, others will want that about you and will come to you instead of you coming to them. About losing weight, if you do have an issue, you may need to see a doctor about it. It could be something easily controlled by medication. Maybe you could see a nutritionist for the right food choices. Losing weight and keeping it off takes a change of lifestyle, not "diets". I do not know what you eat or how much but it is easy to find very healthy alternatives on the internet and you need to adopt these healthy choices as part of your new life and not a temporary fix. Life is not an easy thing for most of us. We all have periods when it seems that everything is going wrong. The key is to remember that life goes in cycles. We have bad times, then we have good times, more bad times, more good times. You need to learn to be comfortable and happy with yourself and you will be able to handle the bad times much better. Start with finding a small thing that you like about yourself and build on that. You won't change overnight, it takes time. It takes some people a lifetime to truly like who they are but it is a continuous process for all of us. Learn to like who you are and the world will become a beautiful place for you.

Hello redik11 how are you. Do you have children or parents???? if so they are your reason to live ok. God made you he made you who you are. You have first love yourself before others can love you. You will spend a life time trying to please others believe me it will never happen. your size do not define who you are. beauty is on the inside.. Love who you are and the ones that reject you are the ones that are losing... lie for you ok....

I guess what you need is motivation and inspiration in life. To be able to wake up every morning is enough reason for you to live. :) Be happy!