depression and disappointment

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I know that I want to live and be content or happier. I think my depression has gotten worse. The only thing I feel like doing is sitting here on my computer. Necessary things a person needs to do daily, I have to push, or I could almost say force, myself to do. I don't feel any zest for life or any inclination to go out some place and enjoy myself. Every day is about the same. Today I didn't even go out for a walk or cup of coffee. I feel like the walking dead - like doing nothing. Nothing except stuff on the computer. I'm not even sure if I enjoy being on the computer much - I kind of do but. I just feel so blah. My son and I were able to relocate but we couldn't afford to go very far and we didn't get to go to a city we would of really liked to have gone. And we got stuck in a rather drab neighborhood. We are both relieved we are not living in the small city we moved here from. My son feels blah to but he can function better then I can. For example I can barely get myself to walk to the nearby convenient store. I feel like I have no willpower or ambition except for getting a few things accomplished online daily. I can't get myself involved in church, a group or any kind of activity. I will go out with my son places. We do allot of walking. But I really have to push myself to get going out the door to go some place. For several days I watched documentaries about food and health; I found out some terribly sad, horrible things that been happening in our world for decades. I think it made me feel even worse then ever. I think 2 prescription drugs I've taken have made me feel less like being less active (zoloft and quintinin (generic syroquel). Any advice.