This particular friend and I.......

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Regards to the last post discussion I posted which was my whole situation of group of friends and social games like the truth and dare etc. I'll be particularly talking about this friend person (close friend,good friend, best friend whatever). She's 25 and I'm 30. I'll admit I'm immature and I don't feel my age as well. I knew the friend from Church and we are like 4 to 5 years being friends. Anyways personally me and her are messaging each other. We text each other and message each other. I do enjoy her company, but I also do not like her ways or behavior too at times. However, she did messaged me not only by just text messaged that she can't stand when I get moody or grumpy or that sort thing in regards to ideas or especially games to play. I explained on message about why I don't like being forced into playing games socially like the truth or dare or charades or any of those silly games. Generally I feel No one who I hang out with or associate with doesn't understands why I don't like playing and now there's people like her that makes a big deal of me acting moody or grumpy as how she said it through text message that I acted like "B" on one of the hangouts we had after the sushi and dessert because of the truth or dare or whatever game that I refused to play. Also is it okay for me to be moody when it comes to game playing? Maybe my mom would get mad if I were like that with relatives. But yeah, She did even messaged me saying what she didn't like about me through a message which is that me is all whiny/pouty when it comes to games or that sort of fun. Yes she has said it in person somewhat with her expression as well. I guess everytime I hear about ice breakers or games, I cringe and don't like it. I've been kinda moody and grumpy when forced to play or when actually playing. I also hate games where I lose. You know what? whenever me and my friend plays, she ALWAYS wins. I hate losing. Yeah I also tend to pout when losing games as well. I do get moody when it comes to me LOSING a GAME. Especially Video games or online games that I play against her with, SHE ALWAYS WINS most of the time.. I cannot stand that at times. She's telling me what she doesn't like about me which is when it comes to ideas or games being thrown there and I give moody pouty sour. Then I also responded to her last prior message response and message that she acts like how I do sometimes. On the message response regarding her prior response, I mentioned she also acts the same and pouty especially when she's with her boyfriend. She responded back to me that she's being serious, that she don't like about that about me on my acting grumpy when it comes those things - the games or ideas whatever happens. Whenever it's about games, I tend to react, like saying "oh I don't want to play". She did says my pout/whiny on that sounds ugly and that we are all adults and should act like one. This what I hate about being adults and all. It's hard to act all mature but easy to act immature without me knowing of it and other people seeing it. I guess I don't know all about how I'm acting except the friends or people who are around me seeing it. She said she'll work on herself but she's more worried for me on what she sees. I guess other people sees alot that they don't like about me... But yeah she told me not take what she said the wrong way or not to have thought that this friend - her being a "B" and being mean blah blah. She told me that she is telling me because she cares and loves me as a sister. So I really don't know anymore.. What are your thoughts of this? I do partly think she's right but I dunno why I'm so uggh.. I don't even know anymore. I know games is for fun but what if I don't want to play. It's like I'm forced to play and have to be mature and adult when it comes to doing something new like games or ideas. I don't know if I misunderstood the point. And I feel even I do NOT want to play, I feel people like her would be insisting me at some point to play some games for fun even if I'm so killjoy myself on not playing. I'm not like her. I'm not like "Oh come on and join the fun" if someone else don't want to play. I hate it. I don't know why, I'm like this. I am guessing if that's the case, I should just distance and cool off for awhile. Any thoughts of all this?