I can't go back to Church
@luisadannointed (6329)
Philippines
April 7, 2013 10:02am CST
I have this bad feeling... I really can't go back to church right now... I feel so bad with all this things happening to me. I am broke and I have no job... and there will be another camp but I can't really finance it... and I don't want to see that leader of mine insisting me to come... they finance my camp every year (except 2011 camp; I got a job that time) and I have no money to pay them back until now... and I hate that girl saying that to my face again.
I feel bad... I feel bad really really bad... but I miss going to church and serve people there.. and invite more people.... I guess this is one big trial for me this year... I got to months left and it will be the half of the year and nothing change... i really feel sad and bad... I think my tears want to roll down my face but I can't. I don't want my parents see me crying... :)
Do you ever feel this kind of pain??? I know its a little petty... I guess I just have to do more effort this time and make sure everything is correct to handle my work and my earnings better.
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9 responses
@blackrusty (3519)
• Mexico
7 Apr 13
well you are in a bad spot and I know i use to go to every camp my church had some times if you talk to your pastor they may be able to help out but it is ok if you miss one they wont hold it against you if you dont have the means to do so
@luisadannointed (6329)
• Philippines
7 Apr 13
I guess I just skip this camp! I know its important and I know I am going to learn new things here but I guess... I am going to miss it out for this year... sad... but I pray to God that he will teach me more during my devotion time with Him!
Thank you and God bless you too in every area of your life!
@airasheila (5454)
• Philippines
7 Apr 13
a pleasant day to you luisadannointed,
with reference to your post, i guess, you can still go back to your church and attend a service although you need to talk to those people whom you have some shortcomings. for sure, they will understand your situation and who knows, they can give you a help with the situation that you are undergoing right now. just take it slow and be positive.
@airasheila (5454)
• Philippines
9 Apr 13
its my pleasure to help you in that way. hoping that everything at your end will be fine.
@luisadannointed (6329)
• Philippines
7 Apr 13
Thank You! Yes I guess I have to do that now... i am just stress seeing that part coming all the stress in talking to them that I can't go to the camp and other issues that I have right now. thank you so much for taking time leaving here your advice.
God bless every area of your life!
@KrauseHome (36447)
• United States
12 Apr 13
Been there, done that and it can be hard. Even times having a job you can go thru times where it is hard to make ends meet and don't always want to be a bother to someone. Personally though giving up and not wanting to go to church is not always the best choice for sure. I think you need to pray about it and talk with your pastor and voice your concerns. Just always remember god is in control and everything always turns out for the best.
@luisadannointed (6329)
• Philippines
29 Apr 13
Hi! I already did... but not with my pastor but to my net leader. Its ok now. I really appreciate you and the others who give me the advice. Thank you very much!
@sajujohn (1005)
• India
8 Apr 13
I can understand your situation, because such worse condition happened in my life also may be eve n worse than that. Still I am going through that. I kept myself away from going to church for almost 6 months, but I went to church on Easter day and after that last Sunday. At this point I have only one thing to say to you, just have faith in him,and keep on praying. I am sure he will never neglect you. He will give whatever you asked to him at a time when he thinks it's best for you. Therefore believe in him and leave rest everything to him.
@luisadannointed (6329)
• Philippines
29 Apr 13
Thanks... its been a weeks, I am attending the church now, and I already talk our net leader that I will not be able the camp this year. And I am about to be transferred to a new leader. Thank you!
Yes I will keep the faith forever... hope you are also attending the church now.
@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
8 Apr 13
It is much better to face them than just hide. The church should come in first before yourself, don't you think? And if people would ask you to join the camp, just tell them that you are expected to go to your aunt on that week and that makes it impossible for you to join.
@luisadannointed (6329)
• Philippines
29 Apr 13
Hehehe! Thank you for the advice... I told them the truth why I can't go to the camp and they did understand... I think there's no need for white lies! Hehehhe! Thank you so much for taking time to comfort me with your advices!
@luisadannointed (6329)
• Philippines
7 Apr 13
thank you so much for this encouraging words!
God bless you more!
@jeannie53 (28)
•
8 Apr 13
always remember god love u first before people did so he will be handing your problems so give it to him
@MoonGypsy (4606)
• United States
8 Apr 13
don't cry, my friend. things seems all scattered now, and it really makes you scared because you don't know when things are going to be better. but, they WILL. this too shall pass. things are about to change for you in just a bit. just hold on a little while longer.
@WakeUpKitty (8694)
• Netherlands
7 Apr 13
I felt a lot of pain since the moment I left home at the age of 15. If church doesn't make you feel better, stay away. Although I thought church should make one feel better and its not about having a job, being rich or feeling great. You can just do your best. As long as you know you do so there is nothing to feel bad or ashamed about.
@luisadannointed (6329)
• Philippines
7 Apr 13
No... its not what I mean... I just can't go back right because of some instances... but this is the place I want to hang on and stay forever... Church is not a bad thing... but there are things I have to settle, bravely enough to speak up... I think God is dealing that to me. I love serving God... but in my case right now financially I am really down so I can't finance even my own fare... hehehehe... but I know God is teaching me something and I know he is not happy in how I deal it.
I want to move out also of our house but... I guess I need to settle things with my parents all the troubles that we are undergoing through before I move out... and I pray I can bring them to church before I left the house. I want to left the house for my growth.... but I do too feel a lot of pain inside our house but I guess it is better to settle every pain before I move out... so the distant will not add to the pain and hate inside of me... I hope everything is ok now with you and your family.
Church really make me feel better you are right about that and it teaches me a lot to be a better person... but in any place are attitude will be tested towards circumstances that I am in now... but I won't quit it. God bless you.
@Raine38 (12391)
• United States
7 Apr 13
I know how you detest having to face those people again in church, but to be honest, are you really in church for them, or for God? They can say whatever they want to say, and you can tell them what you can and cannot do. But you shouldn't let them make you avoid church. Now more than ever you need to be closer to him and hold on to your faith. Your going to church is a matter between you and God, and those people are out of it.
