i fall in love

Lithuania
April 18, 2013 3:08pm CST
I fall inlove with my baby. I am 18 years,and I became pregnant 17. Now my daughter is 2months:) first days i had really deep depresion,I hated my child,i hated myself. I looked at my child when shes cried and shouted :"Shut up!!!" I didnt care that she wanted love. But one day i lefted my baby to mum,and i felt real feeling inside "something is missing" . When i saw my baby and i thinked "thos baby is gift from the god". When i looked into her eyes i saw hopless. She needs mama,shd loves me. And i started to love,every tear toched my heart,every smile makes me dance. I feel happy now,and i feel shame that i couldnt love my litle angel from firsts days. Now my angel takes big part of my life and hearts. This baby taked all of me. I will give my life for her. Really love this cuttie. Have you had situation like this? Do you think i sm bad mamma?
2 responses
doctors2015
@doctors2015 (45)
• Canada
19 Apr 13
Dont worry, it is sometimes natural for females to feel initially, but yes like you, things get better and you fall in love with that angel! :) COngratulations!
ctryhnny
@ctryhnny (3460)
• United States
18 Apr 13
No, your not a bad Mama. I had my son when I was 30 and had 2 girls before him. He did nothing but cry for 3 months and I was really horrible to him because I couldn't take it and my husband was no help. When I took him for his 3 month check up his dr. noticed he had a double hernia! So, this is why he cried all the time and never slept and wouldn't eat. After he got surgery he was fine and we all caught up on our sleep. I don't think new moms especially young ones are always ready for what having a baby is going to take. It's not easy but it will get easier...I promise. Just love the little girl and she will love you back.