a broken relationship

Tweet

actually, i am sad about my breaking up with my boyfriend~ we used to break up twice~and this time is the third one~ i know it exactly that he is not my love~i should let him go~ i have my self-esteem. but i still have the sense of alienation~ i miss his kindness to me~ until now, i don't care about whether he still likes me or not~he is a sensitive person, which i found when we were together~i don't beliver his words, as he can say he likes my tonight and he can also say he never likes me tomorrow morning~ i am a reserved one not expressing my feeling freely. sometimes i don't explain for myself~sometimes i even behavors like a stranger. i don't know why i would do that, but i just did that~ now i am not sure if i like him~ i never say love. i think love is a gorgeous and honorable word~i will never say it casually unless i think i really find my true love~ but now the point is i am so greedy for owning his goodness. i don't like he treats my like a simple and common friend~ i'd like more~ i can't balance my heart~it really makes me confused~~on one hand, i hope i will never see him again and never have contact with him; on the other hand, i hope we can be friend, good friend~i hope he can be as kind warm as before~ we are just not boy-girl- friend, which doesn't mean we should be strangers~right? we didn't quarrel. ..... what can i do?