Beg, Borrow and ask for what? why bother? guess i am fired as a begger/poor person

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Well I was at the end of my rope and yes i swallowed my pride and had to go beg for some help, of course the things i have been through in my life the last few years is not considered a crisis to any of these people whom can pay their bills lets see them get behind a little bit. and see what they do....lol most have no clue what it is like not to have something little which is an everyday part of your life. i have not had a phone for months now it is for most a lifeline i can do nothing about it because i broke my phone and do not have a 100. to replace it so i do without. o.k. back to my point. As I try to find this place and having absolutely no clue what is going to happen or how this all works i pull into the small parking lot and see brand new cars and not cheap ones at that i am in a used car about on its last leg no air can't afford to get the freon so i do without. it is so called 460 air 4 windows 60 miles per hour... to funny huh??? i go in to this private church setting and there are two others in front of me. as they each go into this room i still do not know why i am here or how to do this. i can here these women crying and begging for help. promised myself i would not cry. finally my turn as i walk in to this room scared to death there is a big long table and 8 chairs but only 2 older gentlemen. first they say a prayer and then they look at the paperwork i had to fill out about my unpaid bills. and ask what my situation is. as i explain i have never had to do this before and of the last 3 years i have made it until now. I did not beg for money and i will not. i did cry a little bit just on certain areas one of the dude looks at me and says i do not know how you could survive on that much a month and i replied i make due. i guess. i really thought that it went well that was until to day i got a message from them that they would help towards my rent in the amount that would not even pay my gas bill. have these places been scamed by so many people that they are unaware of the real people in the world who actually need help or are they just cold hearted. i was not asking for them to pay my bills off but what they gave me was pennies from someones pocket and do not get me wrong. i am so grateful for any help but really shouldnt these people watch to see what kind of brand new car these people pull up in. if they can ride around in a brand new escalade and have insurance why oh why are they there begging for money. my new car was one of the first things that had to go. I am just saying.....makes no sense to me.