July 8, 2013 “She stopped caring... and started laughing.”

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i've never been the journaling type but i think it may help to stop my mind from racing during stressful times in my life. I am a 22 year old nurse (well almost nurse) i just recently got a dream job in a new graduate program at a local hospital, bought an apartment with my best friend and met the love of my life. Just last week i found out i failed my boards and now am jobless and feeling like crap. I have worked my ass off in nursing school, failed one semester but stuck it out and put my whole heart into this career. I worked at a hospital all summer to help improve my skills which i felt it did and i was completely confident and proud of all my hard work. Thinking back now i feel pathetic to be sulking in my own pity especially for a stupid standardized test however its a huge disappointment in my eyes. One side of me feels this is a great opportunity to start a new path into the nursing world and the other side feels "why does this bullshit have to happen to me". We'll see what tomorrow brings.