I ONLY HAVE BUT TWO HANDS

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It’s been so tiring these past few months. I have been feeling ache all over my body. Sometimes, I wanna utter the word QUIT. I am a mom of two. They’re 6 and 4, girl and boy. Both are attending a private school. In the morning, at 8:45, I have to wake my son’s up and prepare him to school which starts at 9:45. The school is walking distance from my house. So I have to accompany him walking. After, I have to go back to attend to my daughter’s needs. She has to go to school before 12 noon. This preparation includes eating, bathing, taking vitamins, wearing uniform and brief study for the day’s subjects. Then walking back to school, with my daughter this time. I have to wait for 30-minutes before I go home because my son will be out at 12:30. While waiting, I chat with some parents who are also waiting for their kids to come out of their rooms. Seeing my son going down the stairs means, next task please. We’ll go home together for lunch. Then I have to fix myself for my two-hour tutorial job in a condominium 30-minute away from my house by tricycle. While I’m working, I’ll leave my son to my friend whose staying in school. I’ll come back at 5:00 PM. I’ll pick them together and we’ll go home for the next task. Right away, I’ll turn on my computer and wait for my students’ schedule. While doing that, I’ll prepare or think what to eat for dinner. My night is as busy as my morning because I still have to take care of my kids while I’m having my online classes. Of course, I train them to be as quiet as possible. They know I’ll get mad if they make some noise. If there’s a quiz the next day, I still have to review them. Oh God time is so short. I need some extension. In the weekend, Saturday, my daughter has to attend an academy for Math. My son and I wait in the shopping center nearby. Sometimes, I do my grocery or do some window shopping. An hour after, we’ll pick up Bingbing, my daughter. We would go archade and eat in foodcourt. It’s late in the afternoon, when we go home. On Sunday, we would hear mass or we would go somewhere nice like resorts or parks. My eyes are closing most of the time but I have to force it not to. In my life, there’s no place for tiredness. In fact, it’s not acceptable. I am mom and dad to these two kids. I wanna QUIT but I pity them if I do. I wanna embrace relax but how. I only have but two hands.