I am starving and I am not talking about food
@CaptAlbertWhisker (32748)
Calgary, Alberta
November 14, 2013 10:06am CST
I had been single for like 9 months and I realized I never had any sexual activity within that nine months. Not even masturbation, I just go to work, Go home and sleep. I just realized at this moment my life is more on thriving and not on living. I guess this break up did affect me. I didn't cry but I do feel sadness. You know I sleep in a King bed and I use to sleep next to my ex girlfriend and now I just hug a pillow when I sleep.
Is this normal? I am pretty much sure I am not asexual because I am very sexual when I am on a relationship. Also aside from sex, I miss being with someone, yeah she is not the perfect girlfriend but we did have happy moments that is more on love. Now I am just a machine that goes to work, goes home then sleep
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@sunilmishra7756 (4263)
• Moradabad, India
14 Nov 13
You are looking like a fish out of water.
When a fish is separated from water,the water is never affected.
God bless you.
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@johnnygreybeard (180)
• United States
15 Nov 13
Sorry to hear you are sort of down. If you can get away from the house a little here, and there it may be helpful.
We all handle personal issues differently. Try your hand at getting in touch with nature some. Do something where you can use your senses. Smell, hear, feel the breeze, enjoy the sun. Obviously this is where you are meant to be for the time being. Get a mindset of where you came from, and where you would like to go from here. Most of all, keep hugging the pillow. Go to sleep thinking about exactly what you want, or who (if anyone).
When you can truly love yourself again, and become one with our universe, with all it has to offer, it will work with you to become whole. If you choose to invite someone into your life to share your world, that's great! It is good to have friends, and more sometimes. It is also wonderful to know you are never really alone, even hugging a pillow every night. I enjoy the comfort myself.
Take care, and best wishes to you!
