Escape from Reality

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I feel like I'm the only one living in this world, like I'm the only one who's holding and experiencing all the problems in the world. I dont know if I still have friends. I'm really feeling down these past few days. What is the problem? Is it me or the people who surrounds me? I really dont get it. I want to be alone. Go somewhere far from reality, somewhere far from here. I want to go in a peaceful place where I can forget everything. They say I should start understanding others. But they dont really know that I'm the one who's understanding everything first. They dont notice it. So im the one who's hurt in the end. Some people may see me happy and joyful but they dont really see what's inside of me. That im really sad and broken. They dont notice it because I manage to smile and laugh. But im tired. I'm tired of being happy because the truth is, I am not. I'm not always strong, happy and understanding. People should be senstive with my feelings too. If they have problems, I am the first person who's going to lift them up because I trully not want them to be hurt. Sometimes I just want to be silent even though there are things running through my head. Some are questions, some are statements. But I just cant say it. Because maybe it will harm me in the end. I dont want the time will come that Ino longer care with everything, that I no longer understand every situation because no one wants to understand me...