Frustrated Young Girl

I HATE MY LIFE
Delhi, India
September 24, 2014 9:40am CST
Sometimes I wonder what kind of life I live. In a dominating family, where every second person pressurizes you to be like your elder sister, where everyone forces you to take stream according to them in class 11th, where everyone is like ordering you now and then. I sometimes, not sometimes basically always hate my life. I want to live lives of others. My dad living miles away from me, my sister lives in another city, and people expect me to be normal. HOW COULD YOU LET THAT EVEN THINK? I can say that I did a lot of hard work in my half yearly's and what kind of result am getting? I know I don't deserve this. Why is god being so cruel. I want to make my family proud but god wants me to do the opposite. My sister was , is indeed , an amazing student and my family is so proud of her. She's an engineer, I want to be a journalist. But my family wants me to be like her. My friends scoring full and they always comfort me. I am so ashamed of myself and embarrassed in front of my friends. At school, I feel extremely lonely and there's no one who can understand my feelings. Even giving my best all I can score is 54/90. This fact is killing me inside. All I know is that I DON'T DESERVE THIS. NO.
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• Bangalore, India
25 Sep 14
Dear Shreya, Cheer up, life is not just about proving yourself. We all are living in a world where we are under pressure of some kind or the other. Peer Pressure, performance pressure, goal and target pressure, the pressure to be like your other siblings etc. etc. All these pressures add up and cook us from within like a pressure cooker, leading to stress, unhappiness, and depression. I think one should do what is necessary towards society, family and to the circumstances that we are placed in. But one must not let go his/her goal. One must pursue one's goals silently and steadily, without bothering about what others say, as long as the goal is positive. If you want to be a journalist, then work towards it with all your heart. Dont worry about marks you get in the exam, these are only papers, the real test is in the field, in real life and how you perform there is what's going to matter. Sooner or later on achieves what one truly desires. If you work sincerely and will yourself then sooner or later you are going to succeed. Remember if your Purpose be Honest & your efforts be sincere you cannot but succeed. Dont worry about Loneliness, that is a constant companion of everyone until he discovers himself. Just by being among friends, or relatives and loved ones may not make one happy, it is from within that you have to be happy. Give and take all the love to those who deserve it and expect nothing from them. A Lion always walks alone, never in a pack, be happy and thankful that you have a chance to prove your self and thank god for the things you have. To feel the love of some one you need not be near them always. Remember that every person is unique and there is none other like him in the universe, so Cheer up and Live up. This is not fiction, this is the truth.
• Delhi, India
25 Sep 14
OH MY GOD! THAT IS REALLY INSPIRING. Thanks a ton sir for enlightening my mood. :) All I needed was motivation and inspiration. And a bigggg thanks to you for that. :) And lemme tell you one day you'll watch me on T.V as a journalist. :) @sirkaps09
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• Bangalore, India
25 Sep 14
You are welcome Shreya, I am sure to watch you on TV someday, will wait for the big day. Please feel free to communicate for motivation any time. God Bless.
• Suva, Fiji
26 Sep 14
happy up trust youself