The one I Trust..

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Almost 1 year since this terrible thing happened to me. I did not expect that this close friend of mine will hurt me so badly. I was so shock and feel so down. I ask myself, she did this? Or I'm I just dreaming? I am speechless.. Things just happen in one click. Is this my fault because I invited her to visit my place and pushing her to flirt to my ex-bf ? If she's really my true friend she would realize that this is wrong and She would think that this is just for fun but instead she take it for granted.. "April 01, 2013" The day I invite her because 1 reason it's her birthday and I want her to be happy. I bought cake for her and ask her we go out for KTV and I also asked my boyfriend to come with us and that time she told me that last few days she just got broke-up with her Boyfriend so she felt a bit sad... That time my main focus is to make her feel happy to her Birthday.. We enjoyed and feel so happy. I really feel so great because I saw her happy despite of pain she felt... After KTV we decide to have a drink... We talk and laughing all together. after drinking and talking we decide to go home because it's already late. I am really drunk and also her except my Boyfriend... I asked her to stay at our place because she's really drunk and it's already late. So she said: " Ohh that would be nice"... After that She told me something.. " My friend I am really horny" and I replied: "Ohh me too but what can I do? We only have my Bf here but I think you can asked him if he wants".. mmm But at that moment I am just making fun of her and I thought she thinks the same.. She said : " Oh really? Can I ? ".. Me: What do you think? mmm If you really my friend you would realize that this is wrong " Her: "But you are my friend you will understand that I am horny". and I said " It's up to you" In my mind.., I am thinking that she just making fun so I went to bed.. I fall asleep and feel so relax. After few minutes, I just woke up because I heard something weird in the other room but I just ignore it and I drink water.... I could not sleep.. and again I heard loud voice and I feel so worried.. damn! don't tell me.., When I go straight at that room where she's sleeping.., I found out.., My Boyfriend and Her having sex in front of me... I was standing there.., speechless and looking at them enjoying their moment.. I feel like I was drowning and can't breath.. I was shaking and feel deeply down. I could not believe that my Boyfriend did this.. I really thought that he really loves me.. I just really trust my best-friend.., She's my best-friend since we were young.. I could not believe that She did this too.. I think it's all my fault.. Because I let her to stay at our place. I am just so stupid.. I never think. I am so damn fool. I am just fully trust my Ex-Boyfriend and her... I ddn't know that this could be possible.. But life still go on.. Life so precious and Life is God. I should let this pain go and realize that maybe there is someone out there deserve my Love.. I just want to share this. My life story.