The Girl I love

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The story is long but I want you to read it. I am 17 year of age living in big family of 14 children as an introverted and shy boy. I never have love to a girl because I was committed as a Muslim Brother, my sister told me her friend said she like me; due to my unawareness of what is called. I punch her on the back during break time in school but I regretted later. The second happen why my brother (a big boy of 18 year) having love to a girl while I am still introvert, after she went and came back 1 year later. She turn her attention to me, asking my brothers for my number. I decided to see her most of the time, I almost shake all the time when talking to girls; my relationship went well with her giving a girl my hug when she was in a rush and I didn't know she was coming. Until when my brother asked her to let us meet at a place and have the love with her. I became mad a bit because I am no friend to women since I was an introvert and very very shy, just because I wanted beaten her but my friends didn't allow me to do that. Me and my brothers and sisters (7 of us, I was 16). My first friends were some sort of comedians and funny (I soon join them), going out to cafteria and canteen all time during break fasts. My brother is a big boy who is associated with women while I am not. I went to a club and society during free period, and one of my class mate told me it was his wife; when she came, she ease and said "excuse me" please. I stood up and give her space to sit down. When I went home, my junior brother (a big boy too) started a conversation about her that the girl is quiet and a committed Muslim. On Friday, when we coming back from the hostel to greet one of our friends, I saw her with her 3 friends; she started starring at me with a real smile. I didn't took it serious, she was eager to meet me. I soon realize she is an introvert, a person whose behavior I like the most. Immediately I come out of my class, she is there too (always there every time). I was behaving childish always roaming about in the school with my friends just to see while my elder and junior brother are in their class. One day, I heard a chapter of guys saying women were falling for my elder brother (the big boy) while me I am childish and always laugh. The next day before the girl knew about, As I came out of my class, I saw her coming to meet me for the first time and I went back. She soon heard the story, I was totally down and not able to come out of my class even though everybody is having fun outside; the same happen to her. She never came out because of what happen. I decided to call for her attention through my sister, I wanted talking to her naturally and very honest (because I don't have sweet tongue and how to lie). I know she is very sad, and I don't know what to say to her. She may be discover that I like looking at girls very attractive which may be bad and I had to agree because I have been exposed in that type of life. I directly said to her I want to be more than a friend to have and she said she will think about it (the same happen the following week). I am an introvert and a quiet person, I can't change myself to become a big boy so that girls will like. I want to go back and try to meet her after over 7 month and I will tell her my heart (I am not sure but this is girl I love with all my heart). I am ready to give her my hundred percent. I don't know what to do after all that happen between me and her. I never thought of a girl if not her.