friends? am I a friend?

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what is it to have the many so called friends when you don't have them when you needed them the most? Before,I thought I already had promising friends and likewise, thought to myself that I was one too. We had so much fun, enjoyed doing our favorite stuffs, went to beautiful places, took so many amazing pictures but had few times if not never had any serious talks on serious matters and issues about our life. I could say we were all but dealing with each other superficially. We never dared to open up to each other our predicaments except the obvious. We all hesitated to show how badly we feel inside. We seemed to be fearful of conflicts and never dared to confront each other. We never openly expressed or showed our fears, hesitations and weaknesses. We seemed to try our very best to cover up our most terrible side from each other. And when our friendship started to shake, and each were confronted with the terrible situations we had to go through from then, we did nothing but to watch and act as civil as the other none friends did. We were of no help and comfort to each other in a special way as real friends should to their friends. Up to now, we still cling to each other, get together as we did before but I hope we go more than just superficial friends to real friends for life.