Saying goodbye

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I know this is a depressing subject and that it'd probably be better if I didn't write about it at all, but something inside of me feels the need to let it all out, relive some of the most awesome times of my life even though they are long gone. Maybe this is what comes after the sea of tears that I have shed. I'm not sure. But if you had rather not read or comment, that's totally fine. I feel totally heartbroken and feel like a great disservice has taken place by fate or some other force. I'm outraged, broken, mad, and hurt to the bone. My best friend is gone. Never to walk this earth again. How can that be? How could she be gone? I met my friend Teri completely by mistake on a revenge mission. My other best friend was dating this guy that I absolutely hated! There was just something I didn't trust about him. So I played the part of a little detective and went snooping. As a teenager, I was pretty good and digging up dirt and this time was a piece of cake. This guy was a moron and it made it even easier. Within a matter of weeks and lots of questions to friends who attended different schools than my best friend and I, I found out that this moron was dating a girl from a different school. Cheating on my best friend. I hated cheaters, especially when they are cheating on my bestie! I quickly told my best friend what I had found out, even knew this other girl's name and phone number! I didn't get the reaction I had thought. She didn't get mad at him, she accused me of lying! My heart was broken and I wanted this moron tossed out on his head! But no! Instead I was the bad guy in this mess! So I called this other girl and told her about her boyfriend and my best friend and how they had been together for almost 6 months! (That would be about 10 years in teen age time lol). Teri listened to everything I had to say, which is more than my own best friend did. The more we talked about his sorry A** and worthlessness the better I felt. Teri called me the next day and told me that she broke up with him, and come to find out they had been dating for nearly 2 years, real years (that would be equivalently a life time in teen time). He wasn't cheating on my friend, he was cheating on this poor girl. She was understandably upset and crying. I had hurt the wrong person. I wanted this cheating guy to hurt. .. not her! I invited Teri over and we talked and talked and in those few hours, I found my new best friend. After that day, we were inseparable. She found a new boyfriend that was nice to her and my old best friend ended up married to the moron. Teri and I remained friends to this day. As our lives got more hectic with kids, careers, and everything else that comes with growing up. .. our times together grew less and less, but when we would bump into each other, and suddenly we were back to being 17, laughing about stupid stuff and it was as if nothing had ever changed. She was now a RN, riding her Harley and taking care of people who had no one to call their family. She was married to a guy that adored her, and life was good. Then came the diagnosis of stomach cancer. They gave her 9 months to live but she had a son she had to watch graduate college, she lived 15 months. She saw her only child graduate college and become a RN just like her! Sadly, on a hot July day, only weeks ago, Teri slipped away. Breaking my heart and the hearts of so many other people who loved her and had depended on her smile and her friendship and compassion each day to carry them through. That smile is now gone, the world suddenly seems to be a bit darker, Teri is gone. The girl that should have hated me for putting my nose in her business, but instead changed my life for the better, is gone. My heart hurts, I feel an emptiness that escapes words. Rest in peace Teri and know you left this world a lot better than the way you found it. Note* please forgive typos, I had to type this on my phone because my computer is slow and running its virus program that takes forever. Teri's obituary link