Self Harm

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I began self harming when I was 14. I'd been hospitalized for suicidal thoughts about a month before and my roommate had been a girl who cut herself. She said it made her feel better, so I tried it and found out the pain did reduce some of the internal emotional pain I felt. A few months later, I got kicked out of high school once they found out I was cutting myself. Most professionals haven't even understood how to deal with it. I've been met with threats about hospitalization and - at times - pure disgust. I've been called manipulative and attention seeking for doing it, when in fact I hide my cuts quite well and hesitate to tell people about them. I think I've finally stopped. My fibromyalgia medication numbs the pain when I cut. That takes away the sense of calm I feel after doing it, taking away the whole point of it. I'm also on some new medicine which really seems to be helping. So, hopefully I'm done after 16 years.