My Testimony

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I grew up in an atmosphere of drunkards, violence, sexual abuse, unstability, and much more. By the time I turned 14 I was one angry individual. Filled with bitterness, unforgiveness, hatred and self loathing. I had no respect for myself and had a very low self esteem. I punched things a lot just to try to relieve some of the rage I felt inside. I was smoking at 14. My father bought me a pack of Kool Superlongs for $.50, can you believe it what are they now nearly $5.00 almost! Any ways I didn't have much supervision at age 14. I pretty much did what the crowd I was running with did. So that's a brief synopsis of my younger years. I was raised by a bunch of heathens an back stabbers! In March 1986 I had 2 children by this guy who was 13 years older than me and he was abusive and jealous. I was 3 months pregnant. And I was very suicidal. I hated life it had nothing to offer me but pain and more pain. Anyways one of those nights I was suicidal my childrens father brought home with him this man named; Brad Eitten and Brad talked to me about Jesus Christ and how He came to pay for the world sins including mine and how He came that we might have life more abundantly. So I listened to what he had to say and I decided hey I have pretty much tried all the world has to offer and it only left me wanting. So I said to God; God if You're really real I want to know you and serve you. I said a sinners prayer. I immediately sensed a difference in me. Suddenly I found myself wanting to do right to the Lord. As I prayed the Lord reminded me of the abortion I had at 18 1/2. I didn't know it was a living baby that was murdered in a most barbaric way. I asked forgiveness and wept loudly. Later on in my life I went through a n abortion healing study and gave my baby girl the name "Serena". Knowing I will see her in heaven makes the whole situation easier to live with. But I will never forget her. Anyways so I'm on this new journey called Christianity. Being a Christian means believing in Christ Jesus. I can tell you this its been 30 years since my walk began with Jesus Christ and I have never regreted for one moment. I've never wanted to go back to a lifestyle of sin. Whom the Son sets free is free indeed. Over the years He has delivered me from so many things and healed me of so many things. I know my name is written in the Lamb's Book of Life and if I were to die today and stand in front of Jesus He would find my name I would go home with Him. 30 years ago had I died before believing in Jesus I know I was headed for hell. Do you have any questions for me, so glad to answer any?