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I've known for awhile I suffer from social anxiety, recently I found out I have general anxiety too. I also found out I've been having anxiety attacks on a daily basis, I didn't realize it though, because I always thought an anxiety attack had to be severe, turns out it doesn't. After reading what all an anxiety attack entails it turns out I have them sometimes up to 10 or more times a day. It's actually a little out of hand. I need to look at getting therapy, I have in the past but the place here is so packed, and we have no way to get anywhere else right now. Living with this can be hard, because no one understands exactly how hard it is to live with. They will say things like "get over it, you're fine" or "Just try harder" or they'll make me feel bad for feeling the way I do. They act like I don't already know it's ridiculous to fear the things I do, or that I don't know that I'm over thinking everything. That's the worst part, I do know, but I can't stop feeling or thinking the way I do. I wish I could. If it were really as simple as stopping, don't they think I would have already done it? Everyone gets anxiety, it's just that they don't have it every single day. Those of us with anxiety deal with the feelings every other human has every so often on a regular basis. For us every day is a struggle. Having to do simple daily tasks are a struggle. From making a phone call, to going to the grocery store. Anything that requires some sort of interaction. I force myself to do things everyday, and it takes a lot out of me. Being a mom makes me go out and do these things. I have to call my son in sick, go to conferences, go on field trips. I fight my fears daily so I can try and be a good mom. I put my son's needs ahead of my own. If that means I have to confront my fears head on for his benefit I do it. He wanted me to go on his field trip with him so I did. He wanted to go to his school's dance so we did it. It's hard but I do it, but at the end of the day I'm physically exhausted. Living with this everyday is a battle, and I find myself mentally and physically drained. I wish it really were as simple as telling myself to get over it. I wish I could just one day say "this is all me being irrational." and have it go away. It just doesn't work that way though, no matter how much I want it to.