I simply love a girl, eventhough she does not have that feeling towards me

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I met a girl in 2007 in an online chat, We met during 2008 once and then a couple of times in 2009. She is a wonderful human being, not because I love her even today. If someone want to judge her, she has all the bad traits a modern girl can have. She had many failed affairs, boyfriends ditched her but she loved them and trusted them blindly. they used her and discarded her. Then one day she decided to get serious in life - got a job for herself, then married a guy who promised her heaven. She beinga modern girl for Indian standards, loved to go out to pubs and have a couple of drinks during teh weekend, smoked cigarettes, but I know she was faithful to the person she was married to. I met her recently on chat again while I was checking my mail. I simply pinged her and she responded. She had never responded to my pings earlier. After a while she asked me for my contact number and called me back. She told me her story, story of her breakup with her husband. She was very friendly girl of 30 yrs and I was just longing to see her. She said we will meet 2 days later and we met. The moment I saw her, I could not believe how beautiful she is and how can that idiot dump her over a silly reason created by another friend of her. When she came near me, I told her she looks beautiful and I have again fallen in love with her. She smiled and did not say anything. We sat in a nearby restaurant and she spoke about her sad story. After about two hours she had to go back to her office, I dropped her back at the gate of the office. Before that she thanked me for coming down to speak with her and then the best thing happened. She said, "Raj, thank you." I asked," for what? coming down to speak with you?" " No. for the compliment that I look beautiful." For a moment I could not say anything. Then I said, "You are beautiful, my heart said that, and I just conveyed it to you without hiding". She smiled and walked back to her office. We met a few of times since then till mid 2015. My financial condition is very bad as I am trying to run my business with difficulty. She gifted me a smartphone. Soon trouble started for me from my wife. My wife started to suspect that I am having an affair with her. I told her that this girl has told me in clear terms that I am not her kind of man, I am a good friend whom she trusts for everything to share - be it an intimate thing which she does not share it with others. But I told my wife that I still love that girl and it will be till my last breath. Recently she called me at midnight and that sparked a big war of words between me and my wife. She asked me why I did not meet and she was very angry with me, told me not to speak to her or meet her ever after. I felt very bad and tried to explain to her, but she wont listen. So I thought its better to give time and then get back to her. She is an intelligent girl and she will understand it. I had not met this girl since then, I feel I have let her down at her critical moment. All that she need is emotional support from someone whom she trusted. I realised for the first time that this is how society behaves and forces us to do unethical things. But I have decided to go my way, come what may. Even if my wife leaves me, I will not let down this friend who trusted me. Right now I will not meet her, may be it will cool down her anger too. Friends, in life never get cowed down by wife, children, parents, brothers, sisters, elders, society or whoever. They will not understand your feelings towards another person. For them its I, Me, Myself. Beyond that nothing else exists. In my difficult times, I decided one thing. The day I make it big, I will shower this girl with what she missed or wanted in her life or wanted to do. I will do it just out of my love for her and NOT in expectation that she will marry me. My love for her is eternal and undying. Whenever I think of it, my eyes are filled with tears. I was a person who never shed tears in the past over anything except an occassion. May be one day I will cry aloud and freely infront of others when I see her happy and doing what she always dreamt of doing. When that happens, I will write my short story here again.