Loving and being in love
By dorannmwin
@dorannmwin (36392)
United States
November 5, 2015 3:28pm CST
Through the last several years of my life I have been through a lot of struggles in my personal life. Those of you that were here with the old version and who followed me on the other site know a fair share about those. So, I am not going to go into that now be wise that is old news and it still gets me torn up.
That said, in the time that I have been away from my online work there have been a lot of changes in my life. The most monumental of those is my relationship with my husband. Oh, don't get me wrong, there is always going to be a part of me that loves him. He is, after all the father of my children. The thing is I am not in love with him any more and that is the reason I am saving my money for a divorce.
I have been taking my time to get to know myself again and I have been looking at other options in my life. What I didn't think would happen so soon is that I would fall in love. This is a true love not an infatuation. This is a person that makes me feel good about myself. He doesn't put me down, he does not manipulate me. Heck, he rarely lets me spend my own money on myself. In a word, he is wonderful.
I can't believe I have spent my adult life living someone but not knowing what being in love with someone is. What I pray for the most is that this new satisfaction I have in my life goes on and on.
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@Hatley (163773)
• Garden Grove, California
6 Nov 15
hi@dorannmwin I remember you pretty well as we were both on the old mylot to gether were you not also on bb for awhile. anyway its sad that you never got that great feeling of being loved for yourself unconditionally not every man can do that My hubby was upset with me just before we married as I tried to change my hair color to blonde and my shyness into out \going which I failed badly he told me" I loved you just the way you are, I Iove your odd colored hair, your sensitivity and shyness your introvert its all you the person I love"
so I was myself again be happy with the person who loves you just
like you are they are hard to find.
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@Hatley (163773)
• Garden Grove, California
6 Nov 15
@sugartoes yes I was so lucky to find a mate; who loved me just the way I was as I felt less than pretty but he thought I was wowlI havebeen widowed a long time but I still love him
@GardenGerty (162238)
• United States
5 Nov 15
I hope that things work out for the best for all of you.
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@shaggin (73865)
• United States
10 Aug 16
I remember interacting with you all the time on the old mylot. I see you came back as well yayyyy! But this is your most recent post. I hope you will come back and write more I would love to interact with you again. I hope you are still happy and in love with this man you soeak of and are doing well.
@Hatley (163773)
• Garden Grove, California
17 Dec 15
hi hatley here Im so glad for you that you found a new love a really real love and hope that that satiisfaction for yo u does go on and o n
I re member your struggles alot and am really happy for you hugs.
@marguicha (225020)
• Chile
9 Nov 15
I remember you from the old site and lost contact with you for years. I don´t know what happened to your children and if you regained the custody of them again.
I am glad that your life ishappy now as you have had so many problems.
@gr8nana6 (6614)
• Conyers, Georgia
28 Dec 15
I wish you all the best and hope you finally found your soul mate.
@patgalca (18415)
• Orangeville, Ontario
6 Nov 15
I often find myself thinking there has to be more to a marriage than this. I want someone who is in love with me. Hubby loves me but honestly doesn't know how to love. So many people of our generation grew up with parents who didn't show love and therefore some of us don't know how to. I suppose 18 years of marriage does that to a person. shrug
@katsmeow1213 (28716)
• United States
6 Nov 15
I'm always sad to hear of marriages ending, especially when there are children involved. I hope you're able to provide your children with a sense of security during this rocky situation they're going through.
@cherigucchi (14876)
• Philippines
6 Nov 15
My prayers are with you and I hope that this lasts more than a lifetime
@srisahara (4508)
• Indonesia
6 Nov 15
I think it is a big problem, where you do not love your husband again and try to prepare your divorce. I am sure, you know what the best for you to reach your happiness. I hope you also prepare your children to face a new different life after you divorce. Hopefully, God bless you...
@martygoldeng (47)
• United States
6 Nov 15
Without the courage to change, which modern society allows people to do, there will be no self-esteem, but rather self-hatred, which is a very dangerous thing.
Congratulations on having the courage and wisdom to decide upon a change.
It will be essential to show and tell your children how much you love them.
It is wise to hire an attorney and take good advice to protect yourself against retaliation during the divorce.
Congratulations on your good fortune of having found love once again. God gave you a break.
@rahulvsmokiee (3110)
• Thiruvananthapuram, India
5 Nov 15
Even i am a guy who have been raised from struggling. Nice to see there are more like me.
