Buckets of despair

@Inlemay (17713)
South Africa
November 25, 2015 2:26pm CST
"My heart is carrying buckets of despair, I feel like I'm drowning and cannot breathe the air. How does one get here, a place so remote, alone, desolate and barely afloat. My thoughts are mulling over and over again, so muddled is my mind, almost beyond repair. Will any of this heart throbbing pain ever cease? when can my soul reclaim some peace?" by Lany Olivier Today a special service of Remembrance was held for my friend that went missing in the Himalayas, together with that and missing my mom, I have a few buckets of despair. I once told a fellow blogger that our midnight writings were the reflections of our soul. I am reflecting some soul right about now. This one was not on any other site - its my recent poem
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@bluesa (15022)
• Johannesburg, South Africa
25 Nov 15
So many questions, yet we are told it is not for us to ask why. I too wonder how we survive certain moments. I do know that somehow that strength is found, I can only wish you strength yet again @Inlemay and that you find comfort, surround yourself with loved ones and find that comfort.
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@Inlemay (17713)
• South Africa
25 Nov 15
thank you, i am just sharing a moment, you all seem to care somehow and it means the world to me at this time in my life.
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@Inlemay (17713)
• South Africa
25 Nov 15
@bluesa I take comfort in your care, thank you
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@bluesa (15022)
• Johannesburg, South Africa
25 Nov 15
@Inlemay , it is good that you can share these moments here, let a bit of the heartache out, wonder out loud in a sense. The more we know care, the little bit lighter whatever we may be going through seems, I hope this does comfort you a bit.x
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@pgntwo (22408)
• Derry, Northern Ireland
25 Nov 15
It can be a lonely and desolate place, The Land of the Midnight Blogger. Take heart!
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@Inlemay (17713)
• South Africa
25 Nov 15
thats exactly how it is - its so silent that i can hear my heart in my ears
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@pgntwo (22408)
• Derry, Northern Ireland
25 Nov 15
@Inlemay I'd rather curl up in bed with a good book than blog whilst in that frame of mind... But that us just me!
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@Inlemay (17713)
• South Africa
25 Nov 15
@pgntwo I cannot concentrate long enough to read when i feel like this.
@Rollo1 (16679)
• Boston, Massachusetts
26 Nov 15
Your poem is so melancholy, and it makes me sad to see you feeling so afloat, and so burdened with the sad things you have experienced recently.
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@celticeagle (168291)
• Boise, Idaho
25 Nov 15
I remember when you spoke about your friend who was missing. I am sure sorry to hear this person has not been found. I know if it was me it would be very hard to think of them and what may or may not have happened. And, then to couple that with another loss. I know they are both in a better place.
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@celticeagle (168291)
• Boise, Idaho
25 Nov 15
@Inlemay ...We all need those from time to time.
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@Inlemay (17713)
• South Africa
25 Nov 15
thank you for remembering, i am trying my best to cope. This is my LET IT GO time of night so that i can get some sleep.
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@jaboUK (64354)
• United Kingdom
26 Nov 15
I can feel the desolation here Lany. Beautiful poem.
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@jaboUK (64354)
• United Kingdom
26 Nov 15
@Inlemay It's gone 7pm and we're just having a rest before going down to dinner. We've done plenty of sunbathing today - the weather has been glorious
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@Inlemay (17713)
• South Africa
26 Nov 15
@jaboUK enjoy that dinner - arriba, abajo, adentro!!
@Inlemay (17713)
• South Africa
26 Nov 15
Hola Jabo - why are you not basking in the sun rather than writing here SPAIN is at your feet madam
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@JudyEv (342110)
• Rockingham, Australia
26 Nov 15
I am so sorry that you feel this way. There doesn't seem anything to say that will help so...
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@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
28 Feb 16
from the heart good for you; loved it.
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• Canada
25 Nov 15
I can feel that heart pain, @Inlemay . It seems even harder to feel those losses as holiday time approaches. I hope you find some comfort. Everything seems worse in the middle of the night.
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@ison_1 (1240)
26 Nov 15
I don't know what to say, a beautiful poem, but beautiful in it's sadness, isolation and desolation :( Much love
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@sueznewz2 (10409)
• Alicante, Spain
26 Nov 15
I'm sorry you are feeling this way..., I hope you find peace and solace....to sooth your spirit and soul....
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@DeborahDiane (40321)
• Laguna Woods, California
25 Nov 15
I love your poem, but I am sorry to hear about your friend who went missing in the Himalayas. That is so sad.
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@just4him (317238)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
26 Nov 15
It's a beautiful poem. I'm so sorry they never found your friend.
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• United States
26 Nov 15
I am very moved by your poem, and I wanted to thank you for sharing something so deeply personal. There is nothing like the feeling of despair and the emptiness of loss...this deep and intense part of the human experience that we all eventually share, and yet we each walk it alone as well. You've expressed it so beautifully. I wish you comfort, and peace.
@paigea (36315)
• Canada
26 Nov 15
I am so sorry for your despair. There is no getting over the people we are missing. Take care.
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@Jessicalynnt (50523)
• Centralia, Missouri
25 Nov 15
this was very pretty, and -hugs-, there really are no words alone that adequately reflect sympathy
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@antonbunot (11093)
• Calgary, Alberta
25 Nov 15
O, I was also teary-eyed the other day reminiscing those happy days when my late loving mother and father were still alive and healthy!
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@Missmwngi (12915)
• Nairobi, Kenya
25 Nov 15
Such an expressive poem,sorry about your friend
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