Stress is no longer a feeling, its my new personality
By Renhard
@Renhard (3471)
Jamaica
December 11, 2015 5:54am CST
It's been a very long time since I last came unto this site, so most people might not remember me. One of the main reason I stopped using this site is because of what I am studying. I want to become a doctor and as such I have to spending most of my time studying. I know many have done it before but every time I wish I was at the end of the tunnel because right at this moment, the midst is too dark.
Every minute when I take a look in the mirror, I have to realize that the periorbital puffiness are now permanent. My youth being drained out of me and I am not even 25. Every night I have to be studying until my mind and eyes gives up. A quick 3-4 hour sleep has to suffice as there is no time to waste. Last night I dropped asleep at 12 midnight, and woke up back at 3 a.m. I had no energy and as lie there staring into the ceiling, I realized I needed a break; so back to sleep I went hoping for a better morning.
The road doesn't seem to get better. I am interested in what I do, I love what I do but the journey feels like a death sentence. I always heard the 'wise' say that a "difficult journey makes the destination more rewarding." I really it goes like that.
I know a lot of persons must have their own special journeys they might want to discus. I urge you to do so. Clear your mind, speak aloud, let your voice be heard.
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@srisahara (4508)
• Indonesia
11 Dec 15
Become a doctor is the hard way. My nephew gives up and he does not get an licence to be a doctor, he prefer to choose run a business than become a doctor, because of the hard of the profession.
I hope you will get your dream...
@Renhard (3471)
• Jamaica
12 Dec 15
That have crossed my mind before. I do like money but it isn't all about the money for me. I still want to help people and I am just so interested in doing neurosurgery. Right at this moment though, you have to learn to do everything before they allow you to focus.
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@Renhard (3471)
• Jamaica
12 Dec 15
@srisahara Thank you. I really wish you well in your endeavors as well. Take care.
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@srisahara (4508)
• Indonesia
12 Dec 15
@Renhard I think you are very kind people, you being a doctor does not for money only but also for help others who need your help when you are being a doctor. I hope you will reach your target. God bless you...
@kaichoukebz (1190)
• Philippines
12 Dec 15
Stress is terrible. You really have to give yourself a break or else you might literally break. I remember also myself studying for several hours yet I just gave myself five hours of sleep. It is exhausting. It affected my health. But, I think that's part of life. We have to make sacrifices in order to achieve our ambitions. I know you will going to be a doctor. Trust in your self. 
@Renhard (3471)
• Jamaica
12 Dec 15
Thank you. I love that advice and I will try my best to actually trust in myself.
Sometimes as I go through life I close my eyes thinking where I will be in the next 5 years, and so far I have been proud in myself. Next 5 years I highly believe I will become a doctor. I just hope I don,t break in two before then.
@kaichoukebz (1190)
• Philippines
14 Dec 15
@Renhard Hardwork pays off. If you really want it, you will definitely achieve it. You will have a great career.
@salonga (27775)
• Philippines
11 Dec 15
Stress has become your personality! Oh that is not good. You have to give yourself a break for sure.
@Renhard (3471)
• Jamaica
12 Dec 15
I try at times but as soon as I come back to reality and the work load that I actually have to do, everyone will see how stress we medical students are. You have the few that you see taking breaks every single day and still getting good grades, and you have those that never take a break ( i dont know how they manage.) I fall in the middle, loads of study then a few breaks.
@Morleyhunt (21744)
• Canada
23 Dec 15
Good luck. Don't give up. You can do it and it will prove to be worth the sacrifice.
@ThankyouLord (698)
• St. Petersburg, Florida
13 Dec 15
You will heal many people in your life. There is no greater calling than that. Congratulations. It is a hard road you walk, and you will walk it for a long time. Many doctors do not need much sleep. They can work 48 hours straight with no sleep, then go bike riding. I don't know how they do it. Three hours sleep for me would mean that I would end up in a car accident. Gotta get your REM sleep!
