Never lose your faith in the Lord

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We have all had hard times. There were even times that were so tough, that we almost lost hope. There was a time that I started losing my faith. This was when I actually failed in one of my subjects, then I did not make the cut for another degree program, then eventually forced to transfer to a different school. It was sort of like a domino effect. I am a clean 18 year-old, I don't smoke, drink alcohol or do drugs. I just found it difficult to adjust and study for the subject. I prayed day and night hoping that I would pass, but in the end, I did not. I was devastated when I saw an F marked on my grade sheet. Coming from a family of achievers, I felt like trash compared to my parents and my sister. I was a disappointment. This was when I started questioning my faith. I asked myself, "Lord, why have you forsaken me? What did I do for you to hate me?" All I could do was cry at that point. After that day, I said to myself that faith is not important, and every result I get is based on my hard work alone. I come from a religious Roman Catholic family, so this was a huge thought for me. After a few months, I transferred to a different school, took a new degree program and made some new friends. While I was studying in my new school, I realized that I was working harder then ever before. My studying habits before were nothing compared to my study habits now. This was also when I realized that God did not leave me, I left myself. I did not put that much effort before, and that's why I failed. My grandmother told me that, "God works in mysterious ways. You cannot tell whatever is he thinking, but he'll always be there guiding you. When we want something to happen, we ask Him, but He will only be there to guide and make sure that everything's gonna be all right. We still have to work hard if want something from Him." Right now, I became a full scholar at my new school and it is all thanks to hard work and prayer. With God, nothing is impossible. I fell down, but He was there to lift me up. I just wanted to share this eye-opening experience of mine. Thank you for reading :)