Dude! Please just shhhhhhhhh!

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I think lately I am just not wanting any interaction with people around me. Just feeling like I would rather spend some time alone which I know we all need. It can be very hard when I am living with my dad and brother. Of course I love them to death but I even need time away from them too. But since this is impossible right now, I thought I would try to keep myself occupied. So I hired out some DVDs that I thought I could watch in the lounge room. I do have a TV and DVD player in my room but was more comfortable and cooler in the lounge room. The movie I picked to watch first was Alfred Hitchcock's Psycho. I have been wanting to see it for a very long time and I finally found it. But all the way through the movie I had interruptions. I am fully aware that I live with 2 other people and things happen to create noise but I feel like they were totally oblivious that I was wanting to put all my attention into the movie. For awhile my brother was sitting in the lounge room with me but was on his phone looking at YouTube videos. I asked if he could please turn it down. Which he did but then whatever he was watching was making him laugh loudly. I inhaled very long and slow to calm myself down. Thankfully he stopped laughing. But then he went to open the back door to let the dog in. "Hey Charlie! Who's a good boy? Want din dins? Want din dins?" I paused the movie waiting for him to stop talking to the dog. He then gave Charlie some food and went back to his room. So I hit the play button to continue watching the movie. Not long after that, I hear him with his TV loud watching some action movie so loud cars, loud gun shots, yelling. So I went down the hallway to his room and asked if he would please turn the volume down or at least close his door. Door got closed. I could still hear his TV but wasn't as loud as before. So I continued again. Not even 2 minutes goes by when the phone rings. I pause the movie. Answer it and it was my nan wanting to talk to my dad. So I give the phone to dad in his room but he comes out with the phone to sit in the lounge room to talk. So I keep the movie paused. Laying there on the lounge thinking to myself that everything is alright. This happens when you live with other people but at the same time my patience was running thin. More than 10 minutes goes by and they hang up. I hit play. Was at a really great part in the movie which was the famous scene where she is in the bathroom and I was getting excited to be seeing this classic part of the movie. I've seen TV shows and other movies make references to this part but now I can finally see it for myself. Amazingly enough I watched that part in peace. But of course when there was some more important parts coming up, Charlie started barking at something. So I paused the movie, looked out the front door and there was nothing but he continued barking anyway and I was patting him hoping to calm him down but he wasn't so I picked him up to put him in my brothers room. I said "Please keep him here. I really want to watch this movie in peace." He just said "hmmm." I go back, hit play. 10 or so minutes, dad, my brother and Charlie come out and sit to watch the movie but were talking at the same time. Playing with Charlie and talking to him and then started asking questions. "Is that her sister?" "Do you reckon the mum really killed her?" "Do you think the detective will die?" "It is so hot today." "Charlie want a treat? Want a treat? Yes?" I was DONE. I paused the movie. I quickly got up, walked to the kitchen, grabbed a treat for Charlie. And all in one go I said "Here is your treat! Yes that is her sister! I don't know if the mum really killed her hence why I would like to watch the rest to find that out! I have no idea if the detective dies, I never even thought about it! And yes! IT is really hot! Now please shut the fudge up!" I actually do have A LOT of patience but not this time. I was way too eager to be alone and watch this movie but it was feeling like hell was going to freeze over first before I could accomplish this. I thought my outburst was a good enough hint for them to keep their lips zipped. But not really enough hint for my brother. Instead he laughed. Which was a bad move. He was already on thin ice. He has been p*ssing me off a lot lately so I really wasn't in the mood to be mocked so I literally said "PLEASE shut the F*** up! All I want to do is watch this. That is it. Is it really that hard to PLEASE be quiet and respect my feelings just once?" I didn't give him a chance to reply I just clicked the play button once again. All was quiet BUT the DVD started freezing and skipping. I got up, ejected the DVD and gave it a clean, popped it back in, found my place and it was fine. Dad got up to go have a shower. My Brother was still there but again on his phone laughing. I looked at him as if to say "I swear if I hear you, I will punch you." So he was quiet but like 5 minutes his phone rang and he sat there talking to his friend. Anyone with common courtesy would have got up and went into a different room but noooooo lets just stay in the same room with the person who wants to watch a movie. I gave him the "please leave the room" hand motion so he did. He was gone for a little bit and I was getting sucked into the movie and was calming down for the only thing making a sound was the movie....Until someone had knocked on the front door. It was my brothers friend. I said hello and we spoke for a very little bit and I sat back on the lounge thinking he would just walk down to my brothers room but instead my brother came out to sit and chat with his friend there. I sat just looking at them with a blank expression. I was not wanting to join in. I was not even really listening. I could hear them but it seemed my angry thoughts were louder than they were. It was just getting way too frustrating. No joke, 40 minutes goes by and his friend finally leaves. I click play. Dad came out to tell me he was going to see my nan and pop. I said "ok bye bye then." he asked me if I was ok and I was like " yes yes yes yes I just reeeeally want to watch this." He said ok but asked me if I wanted anything while he was out and I said "How about some muzzles for you two." I did laugh at this point and so did he but my laugh was more of a frustrated laugh. Then my brother left to go out. Once he did. I sat back thinking "Finally." Continued watching my movie. But had to pause it once again not long after because my mobile rang. It was my Aunty. I groaned. Not because it was her but because I couldn't ignore the call otherwise I'd feel bad so this meant I had to talk. We spoke for a little bit and she asked what I was doing so I told her I was watching Psycho. Honestly her reply was her saying "That is a classic movie. You wouldn't believe it was........................( this is the part where she tells me the ending but I wont type it out just in case anyone out there doesn't know). " I sat there listening and started feeling really dull. Like I had been struggling to watch it this whole time and in one moment someone ruined it for me. She didn't pick up on my frustration but I just replied with "oh..well there you go." and spoke for a bit more and we said goodbye. I looked at the TV and didn't know if it was even worth me clicking the play button again. Eventually I did and I really did enjoy the movie and wouldn't mind watching it again but it was all just too annoying. I'm totally sure I will look back a this and laugh.........