Why I Dislike Eating

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Another comment by another user got me thinking about the dilemma I face each day. I dislike eating, for the most part. I do eat, don't get me wrong, I just don't enjoy it as much as I did when I was younger. I had a growth removed from my face when I was a young lady. This left a small depression on my cheek and left me without one of my spit glands. When I eat, saliva on that side of my face seeps out my cheek when I eat. With the removal of the gland, it has little other place to go. When they did the surgery they had to remove many nerves to the right side of my face. This left me paralized on one side of my face. I was told I would never smile again. Wrong, I can smile just fine. Tiny bit lopsided, but people don't notice that. However, when I eat people DO notice the wet stuff on my cheek. Quite frankly, I am sick of having to explain it while I eat. This makes me not want to eat around other people. When I was a little older I had to get my tonsils removed. I had a 3 month infection in my tonsils that would not cease. Unfortunately, however my nerves grew back on the right side of my face in a way that the tonsilectomy further damaged them. I lost both my sense of taste and smell for 6 months. Imagine your favorite meal laid ahead of you, your mind already in place, so your drooling for a bite. You take a bite... and it tastes like sand. When my sense of smell and taste came back everything smelled an tasted different. Still does. Over the years I have gotten used to the new taste of food, but that plus the seeping spit out of my cheek has made eating a burden. I have to keep a napkin handy to wipe my cheek. I know I am probably clinically crazy for only eating when no one is watching. I also have to continue to assure people I do eat. I try to remind them that all of these curves do not come from starving myself. People seem satisfied with that answer. Anyhow, I do wish we had those Jetson's food caplets so I would have to waste no more time on eating, or dishes, lol. Until then, I will just continue to eat in secret I suppose.