Why is it so hard to be resigned?

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I don't know why I have such a hard time being resigned to my inevitable future. Certain things just aren't meant to be, and there's nothing I can do to change it, so why worry about it? I tell myself that it isn't that bad; I have a set routine, a good paying cake job to go to every day, a good home, etc. At least I won't have worries and plans, and being disappointed when things don't work out. The prospects are really boring, but I've been a stick-in-the-mud for 36 years already, so this shouldn't be any different. I think my problem is that before at least there was a hope in the back of my mind that I would get out of the rut eventually. Now there's no chance, at least for the next two years. Plus, I'm upset at the looming breakup of my family. But I know there's nothing I can do about it, they have their own lives to lead and their own decisions to make, and I know I've made my own share of stupid decisions in my life. Actually, that could be the catalyst for me to move on, so I should be happy, or at least it should be easier to be resigned to a future I have no control over. But why is it so hard to accept?