Confrontation.
By MsTickle
@MsTickle (25180)
Australia
March 15, 2016 11:16pm CST
I've been in situations where I'm being confronted by a person superior to me going on and on about my failings. The two worst times it happened were women I did not like and at some deep level, I knew that these women did not like me.
The first was a nun when I was in my second year of high school. This nun was going on at me, about how awful I was compared to my older sister. The more I cried, the more she smiled and I knew she was enjoying the effect she had on me.
The second time was a boss telling me that my staff had no faith in me and I was being demoted. I cried and blubbered and hiccuped and sniffed and even though we were sitting in a busy food court, she took it all in her stride, adding to my insecurities. I was so embarrassed and demoralised because I got along really well with my staff whom I respected and enjoyed. (Found out later my 2IC was bad mouthing me and telling lies to get rid of me and take my job.)
Now I'm older I realise there are cruel people in the world and some are bad and some are just plain miserable and they take it out on those they have power over.
I know if I am confronted in anger I will react as always, so I live alone and feel safe and try to accept my failings and learn to like myself.
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@MGjhaud (23240)
• Philippines
16 Mar 16
we cant avoid having power trippers in this world but we certainly can avoid having them in our lives. im sure theres always a way to stay away from them.
always make yourself better. dont think that your less of a person everytime youre in that situation. take it easy now..
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
23 Apr 16
I can understand. I believe you and have been there many times. just wonder if we really will inherit the earth like the Bible says... the meek will
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
23 Apr 16
@MsTickle me to but it is obviously not all up to us as much as we try. people don't seem to care
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@vandana7 (100296)
• India
8 May 16
Pretty much a person like me. I have had issues too. I won't say I was perfect. But I won't say I was the sole reason for those problems. You described the situation very well though...been through quite a few of them..though nuns have been good to me.
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@MsTickle (25180)
• Australia
16 Mar 16
It's very difficult to like yourself when you have no idea how to go about it. Being criticized and made feel badly about oneself, being physically punished for making mistakes and being rejected by those you love while receiving a strict Catholic upbringing is very unhealthy and confusing.
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@sishy7 (27167)
• Australia
17 Mar 16
@MsTickle I imagine it would not be easy at all under such circumstances. I know understand better why you prefer to live alone. I hope being in more peaceful environment has lessened the negative impacts of your upbringing and even erase them all together eventually.
@DeborahDiane (40294)
• Laguna Woods, California
16 Mar 16
I'm so sorry you had these horrible experiences. It is important for all of us to learn to like ourselves. If we don't, no one else will.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
23 Apr 16
@MsTickle me to. I am so sorry and we have this in common
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@Hatley (163776)
• Garden Grove, California
2 Apr 16
oph my You sound l ike me and I was in a catholic school of nursimng a protestandt gr ahd the sister was also berating me comparing me badly to my half sister R osile who she said e xcelled as a nurse. She so berated me that I left in tears and never did become a registered nurse but worked as anurses aide for years.Shesmiled too s I burst into tears as if she really got her kicks out of see ing me suffer. I too react wth tears when somewn tries to tear me down. I know now too that there are people who enjoy hurting so meone and the y often get in positions of authority. I am in a retirement center now.
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