Baby blues.
By Danty D
@DaintyD (1101)
March 29, 2016 6:32pm CST
I'm sick of being asked if / when I plan to have children time and time again.
I'm sick of pretending it doesn't hurt, faking smile as I'm quizzed.
I'm sick of lying here praying for a miracle, of looking over at the hubby wondering how he truely feels inside - why he stands by my side.
I'm sick of reading posts from women complaining about their children, reading articles of parents neglecting their offspring.
So here goes the truth for the first time, no it's not okay - it leaves a massive hole in my world, it makes me question my worth, it makes me not want to carry on. Most of all - it takes away any feminine feeling I never had.
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@destimona (1910)
• Luxembourg, Luxembourg
30 Mar 16
I can understand your feeling. Everything will be done at the right time if you remain under God's will.Hope the best.
@DaintyD (1101)
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30 Mar 16
@destimona
I'll never give up hope, after all if we don't have hope what do we have?
@DaintyD (1101)
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30 Mar 16
@destimona
It was just thoughts going through my head last night - generally I smile and say no I have dogs instead
@ShyBear88 (59347)
• Sterling, Virginia
30 Mar 16
I'm sure you have tried trying to have a baby. Many women have difficulty getting pregnant or are told they can not. The only advise I can give is to try to relax let nature take sits course. It must suck wanting to havw a baby but things just don't always go that way. Talk to you husband that is important must know how each other feel what steps do you both want to take next.
A great option is surgets or adoption plenty of babies born every day that don't have parents or have parents that can't care for them.
@PainsOnSlate (21852)
• Canada
30 Mar 16
People are so rude and insensitive. If someone asked me that I would just say its none of your business. They need to stop. If you have to be rude back do it. it will stop if you let people know ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS...
@DaintyD (1101)
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30 Mar 16
@painsonslate
I tend to talk away. I can't understand what people are thinking asking question after question. What don't you have children, why can't you have them, when did did you find out, how do you feel, what have you Tryed.
I mean really how do you think I feel and if I wanted to tell would - I would.
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@Macarrosel (7498)
• Philippines
30 Mar 16
I can feel you. It's more than 4 years after we got married that I gave birth to my eldest. I thought I could not have a child. Just have faith in your self and pray a lot. I hope you can have them soonest.
@DaintyD (1101)
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30 Mar 16
@macarrosrl
I'm so happy for you, that your dream did come true and my partner havnt used contricepstion in 7 years. Each month Mother Nature comes along and reminds me how unnatural I am 
I try to be positive, I count by blessings for the friends, family and pets I have around me. But nothing can truely fill the emptiness inside me.
I have recently began thinking about downsizing out house - we moved here intending of needing the extra room all those years ago - but now each time I walk past it reminds me of what we can't have.
I Tryed doing up the room, turning if I to a relaxation room - figered if I made use of if maby if would be less painful. Sadly it's not worked I tend to sit in there morning the child I never had.
Sorry to go on - I don't talk about this stuff, it's the first time I'v been open and honest about how I truely feel, now I can't stop the words coming
I try to be positive, I count by blessings for the friends, family and pets I have around me. But nothing can truely fill the emptiness inside me.
I have recently began thinking about downsizing out house - we moved here intending of needing the extra room all those years ago - but now each time I walk past it reminds me of what we can't have.
I Tryed doing up the room, turning if I to a relaxation room - figered if I made use of if maby if would be less painful. Sadly it's not worked I tend to sit in there morning the child I never had.
Sorry to go on - I don't talk about this stuff, it's the first time I'v been open and honest about how I truely feel, now I can't stop the words coming
@madcrochetlab (275)
• United States
1 Apr 16
I was bombarded with a lot of those questions too and it did hurt a lot when cancer had taken my choices away. Just please remember that you have a lot of worth as a human being and also as a woman, regardless of the fertility situation. But I do hope you get what you pray for.
@DaintyD (1101)
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2 Apr 16
@madvrochetlab
I don't know what on earth these people are thinking - I was to scream at them to mind their own buisness.
I'm sorry you have also suffered :(
At least I have many over great people in my life - we can't have it all.
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