Get me off this roller coaster!

@CRK109 LoL! This made me laugh, because I too sometimes pray for a boring life. But many would say that this would not be living. I would just like to do away with the lows, even if it meant not-too many highs. Thanks!

@bounce58 Those who say a boring life is not living have not had their share of obstacles to deal with! lol On these calmer days, I can actually be grateful for all the good things around me and I can enjoy life instead of watching my every step. It's a whole different way of living. :)

@CRK109 I do appreciate this 'different' way of living. i think I'm wired this way. I could appreciate little things which others may deem as common or mundane. Sometimes it's just hard when you're surrounded by people who are of the other kind.

I think I could manage a spin-cycle kind of life. If it meant the highs are just at a certain high, and the lows are just a certain lows. It gets tough when the lows are levels you don't even know if you can handle.

@bounce58 I get how hard it is, but sometimes the best thing we can do is let go. I have an ex friend I had to get rid of because he was dragging me down and making me feel bad about myself, and a real friend doesn't do that. I'm a loyal person, if I'm friends with someone I do my best to stay their friend, but I also don't let a lot of people in, but when I'm in I'm in, which is why letting go for me is difficult. I am not so much a control freak, but I like being in control of myself and my actions, I don't feel the need to control the things around me. I too am a loner though, and that's something that makes my life a little difficult at times, because as a loner it's harder to make and keep friends, because you need people that really understand you that know how you are and still want to be around you. I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I do have I've had forever, because they get me for the most part or as much as I'll let them know me, and I'm loyal. I make sure to find time for my friends. I've dropped certain things so I could help out a friend, but I'm not entirely sure they would do that for me, some of them might, but regardless I try to make sure I keep my friends, so having to cut one out of my life was difficult for me, and to this day it bothers me, but sometimes we do what we have to do. We can't control life, but we can control the way we handle situations.

@sissy15 I am the same in terms of friends. As a loner, it's hard for me to open up even with friends. Most of the people I consider real friends are back In high school. It's hard to find new ones because I don't feel they get me. And for those who call me friends, like you I could drop everything if they nees my help (and like you, I don't expect them to do the same if I needed help, not that I would ask for it anyway. I'd probably be just joking about it and making them laugh).

I too hate being not in control. Specially for a control freak like me. I recently responded to a friend's post here about letting go, which is hard for me. I'm also a bit of a perfectionist which makes it doubly hard. Control-freak, perfectionist, melodramatic loner -- these are some of the things about myself which I wrote about in your post.

It is a combination of everything (maybe not too much of work, as that's the only thing I think I have a good handle of at the moment). It's feels like a rabbit hole sometimes, hard to stay positive. I went for a run to shake it off!

Thanks @LovingMyBabies ! Just venting off here. I'm already here on myLot trying to 'get off the ride'. Maybe I just need some alone time to collect my thoughts.

Oh how I wish I could just get away from these negative people around me. Hopefully it gets better.

When I do get dizzy, I try and escape. Today I ran/jogged to get that feeling of escaping. It was still spinning when I got home, but I did feel better.

Maybe you should step off the roller coaster too!