Paralyzed by fear

can't get out
@bounce58 (17387)
Canada
April 13, 2016 5:27pm CST
I don’t mean literally not being able to move, but the inability to make decisions, move on, or be happy. The fear of knowing the outcome, and the hopelessness it brings. Of wanting to escape, but unable to. Trying to survive by going through the motions, knowing full well, that it doesn’t end well. Of wanting a better alternative, but having no means to get to that change. Trying to jump-start life, yet all becoming an exercise in futility. Dark clouds are coming. Hope that you’re appreciating your day – and hopefully much better than the one described above.
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@josie_ (10034)
• Philippines
15 Apr 16
Just reading what you wrote is depressing. There was a momentary cessation of thought while my fingers idled on the keyboard. Thankfully I was able to jump-start my brain when my eyes wandered to a quote on my desk..."Carpe diem"
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@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
15 Apr 16
It's great that you have that saying close by. It's a great reminder. The purpose of the post was not to spread the cloud, but to remind everyone that they should appreciate what they have.
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@josie_ (10034)
• Philippines
15 Apr 16
@bounce58 _I tend to be a bit dramatic with my comments. I hope you didn't take it the wrong way. It's just the "tongue in cheek" way I write. trying to get a laugh or two.
@moirai (2853)
• Philippines
14 Apr 16
Hello there! I've been absent from this site for a looooooonnnnnggggg time. But I am so glad to see that some of the old myLot friends are still here. As for the feeling described above, I'm sure I've had that feeling several times in my life. It is hard and depressing when you're in the middle of it, and it sure does feel there is no hope. But if you hang on somehow... 'this, too, shall pass', as they say. So I guess the important thing is to hang on, don't give up, just continue with the effort to do the good or the right thing, and eventually, you will get to the point where things are a little better, less bleak, less hopeless.
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@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
Thanks for the response! If you remember the old myLot, we used to award a 'best response'. If it were the same still, I would award it to yours @moirai ! As you said/wrote in here, I do hope that this too, shall pass.
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@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
Thanks @moirai ! Hope to bump into you a few more times here on myLot!
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@moirai (2853)
• Philippines
14 Apr 16
@bounce58 Thank you! And speaking of best response, I do believe you were the first one I gave a BR to in the old days. And also one of the first people I followed when I came to this site. Here's hoping for brighter days ahead for you.
@maezee (41988)
• United States
14 Apr 16
Whoa this is deep. I try to stop my mind when it roams into these dark places. I guess in a way we can all wander down these dark roads. Its hard to understand busting tail when in the end -does it really matter what we do? Its getting a little existential in here!!
@maezee (41988)
• United States
14 Apr 16
@bounce58 I can tell that you are - wish I could help. It seems like you are way too nice to be falling down this rabbit hole. Let us know how things proceed. Stay positive!
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@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
Thanks @maezee !
@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
Yes it is! Just going through a rough patch right now, but your response did make me smile - pushed the clouds away, even for just a little bit! Thanks!
@much2say (55318)
• Los Angeles, California
14 Apr 16
Been there . . . I am definitely appreciating my day(s) right now. It took some "doing" on my part to get "here" - but the thing is I will forever have to be "doing" - and that's the way it is. Even if I know the inevitable ending, I can always work on making that ending "better" - that's what keeps me going. Keep that chin up . . . the storm cannot stay forever
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@much2say (55318)
• Los Angeles, California
15 Apr 16
@bounce58 It's nice when you can finally see the light !
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@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
Thanks @much2say ! I'm sure you're right. It can not stay forever. I just hope it's done already.
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• Eugene, Oregon
15 Apr 16
I hope that the 'dark clouds" pass and you can walk in the bright sunlight again soon.
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@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
15 Apr 16
Thanks @JamesHxstatic ! I hope so too.
@just4him (317004)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
I'm sorry you're in that situation and hope it clears up for you soon.
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@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
Thanks! And as per your other discussion, I hope you come out of the fog too!
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@cherriefic (10399)
• Philippines
14 Apr 16
I've experienced this before and I am trying my best not to be in the same situation anymore. Im happier and contented with my life now.
@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
Good for you! Hope that it continuous, and you have lots of great days ahead!
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@Vjvals (906)
• Roseville, California
13 Apr 16
Hardly anyone I know personally is happy or even content
@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
It gers even harder to be happy when you're surrounded by people who are unhappy.
@miniam (9154)
• Bern, Switzerland
13 Apr 16
My day was much better and i really appreciate as i know full well how is it to live with the dark clouds.
@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
We take each day as it comes. And I'm glad that you appreciated your day. And that you know how good it is as compared to a dark-'cloudy' day.
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14 Apr 16
We are all just trying to get through each day. Some things make me happy where other days are not so great.
@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
14 Apr 16
Yes we are! We just hope that the not-so-great-days don't come often. And that the better days outweigh the not-so-great ones. Thanks!